This is difficult for me to write. I don't want to upset anybody or make matters worse,  so I will write this from the heart.

For those of you who don't know, I swore at another member 3 days ago several times. This was unacceptable behaviour on my part. Whilst I do not regret my actions, I do realise that they were very disrespectful and I did not handle the situatiom in the best way. I hope that people appreciate that this behaviour was out of the ordinary and not something I usually do.

I have been reflecting on my actions the past few days. It is all I can think about. I was experiencing extreme mood swings and I can't remember some of that evening. I think I was having a bad episode. I am not using this as an excuse for my behaviour but things have been hard.

I then went on to change my marker to female and change my name, then announced I would be departing. This was a very rash decision and I hope from my posts that it is clear that I wasn't thinking straight.

I am aware that my behaviour has been rapidly changing from one extreme to the other and I am truly sorry for that. I am trying to work through my emotioms. After doing a lot of thinking I am going to take a break from posting until I feel emotionally and mentally stable. I understand that it was not wise for me to post during that episode, and I would like to apologise to anybody who read my foul language and to the people I offended.

I am very very sorry for my recent behaviour.

Joe! Family does that every once in a while. I have had to have several family members here help me through times that were so bad I didn't want to be around me. We have a tougher time than most people ever even get close to. I for one would love to have you PM me when the times get bad. That is what we are here for, support. How good would we be at that if we could not understand the things we all go through. If you need a break, OK, nothing wrong with that at all. Please just do not go into a break thinking you had committed an unpardonable error, OK? I also don't want you to think you can't come back. YOU CAN. Take care baby and keep us in mind when the poopie hits the fan. 

Hey Joe!  Don't worry.  You recognized what was happening and you stepped away for a breather.  That is actually pretty mature.

Sometimes it is better to blow off a little steam.  Maybe not on the boards, but you have friends you can
PM or email, who understand the stresses of transitioning, especially as a teen.  It's not easy and at times aggravating.

Frustration sometimes will get the best of us.  Part of functioning in seamlessly in society as TG/TS is being able to transcend those sorts of annoyances.