I have been practicing saying 2014 lately and it sounds weird.
Hi Izzy, Jessica, Kiaraja. I appreciate your joy and responses.
To answer Kiaraja's question, there really has only ever been one obstacle within each and every engagement I jumped into, myself. Specifically, my sexual aptitude, for those of us which are medically in transition, the libido takes a giant forced change, one I gradually accepted and learned to embrace, this however brought up performance issues in a few of the handful of intimate dates, we are all familiar with the 'bases'? (baseball metaphor) Right, well once it gets down to second base, anything after is simply beyond my current capacity to deal with, in a way that I am comfortable with, I am planning for post op in the future and my genital relationship has slipped into the friend zone.
With the guys, I always feel uncomfortable because we only ever hangout at first base, anything beyond that just turns weird for me because I can't get certain imaginary situations from popping up in my head, leading to those odd questions of, are you ok, did I do something wrong, want me to stop. We know guys are like super horny, almost all the time, I don't believe that's too far a stretch, so a guy vs girl relationship is like on fast forward intimately.
With girls it's more down to earth, but weird also, I don't want to be performing anything past third base, to them, nor want to receive anything down there, my one relationship with a straight, bi-curious girl stopped almost as soon as it stared because of my lack of continuation physically. As a result I settled in the Queer sphere of dating and to be honest, Queer dating was new to me.
I'm six foot one and weigh around one seventy five give or take a holiday, I ran into this dominance/submissive problem in my remaining dates, some which continued for quite a while where my physical stature lead them to believe I would naturally be dominant, yet I often dressed quite femme. Basically long story short a ton of mixed signals so far. To mention also, orientation, in the community there are so many orientations I actually had to read a list to know them all once upon a time, similar to how transgender covers so many gender identities. I am still wandering through the Queer community at the moment trying to find out what flag I want to fly.
This has just been my own general experience.
