Hi there, my names Katisha but please call me Latrell. I thought it'll be a bit decent to introduce myself and since I don't know where or how to start, I guess I'll just start with the basics.
I'm just about your average built skinny girl, except I'm a butch/stud lesbian and strongly prefer the whole male status thing. I'm currently pretty well-known and social, lots of friends, and just average I guess. I have no real talents, except I'm told I'm very charismatic and an easy friend magnet, I run and have been running track since 7th grade, 4th if you count those little 50 meter sprints, and I love the orchestra. I am very outspoken though, I'll say what's on my mind and I don't really care if you don't like it, and I am a history nerd. Also, I'm planning on becoming a vet tech in the future, got my college planned out, and soon into the army reserves and then active duty for the army after college and such.
So now that you got the basics from me, I might as well explain why I signed up. Basically starting my freshman year I really had this urge to dress more and more boyish, less like a tomboy more like a, well, guy. So middle of freshman year I gave it a try for one week. Ever since then I was just itching to do it more. So after school I dressed like a guy and went by Kody, my first "male" name so to say. Then I moved and stopped it. After about a month or two into my Sophomore year, those urges got stronger and stronger. At the time there was another stud girl there and when I saw her I just pretty much thought "whatever, I'll do it" and begged my grandmother, who wasn't and still kind of isn't supportive of the whole dress choice, to take me shopping for mens clothing. A month later I did, and got one of three terrible haircuts. Two months past, I got another cut and a month later got my third cut. Finally, I got my fourth and final cut, which is what I sport today. A little mens buzz cut, what you see with most black men.
So now, I'm a junior. But earlier this year I began to notice I was still unhappy with myself. I hated my voice, my eyes (I've been told I have very feminine eyes), my looks, my everything. I tried to deepen my voice and only when I wear contacts do I look masculine. I've begun to slowly connect the dots with my discomfort with my body to my unhappiness and decided to do what most people my age do. Use the internet. So I went online and it didn't take long to find out I had GID, I hope that's the right term, and obviously I needed to see someone. I really hated my feminine parts, breasts, eyes, voice... Down there. You know. I even start trying to bind and make it look like I had something down in my pants in public. I occasionally get called 'him', 'sir', and 'young man' and let it pass and smile. I'm often mistook for a man and honestly like it. I try getting my friends to call me Latrell even, a name my best friend gave me (I love that girl to death) and it's somewhat working. But still I'm uncomfortable, and where I live at finding therapists for my problem is far easier said than done. But I'm taking baby steps and so far, it's decent.
Onto my actual reason I signed up, I found this website and thought, after a bit of looking, that maybe I could find people here to talk to. I really want to just meet a few people who know, or at least can help me through, what I'm going through. My best friend can only do so much and although she helps me greatly, I would really love some support from people who can understand what I'm feeling. I just really want to find more people like, or similar to, me I guess. It's hard to explain my reasoning, but this is the best I can do. But if you have any questions about me, feel free to ask because I'm an open book. Hopefully I didn't confuse anyone and if I did, sorry!
