I'm like 5'10" lol. I wish I was short I like looking up at people. >.>

I decided on Monday I am going to call the doctors that I was meant to have top surgery with (paid for by gov't). I'm scared!! I'm scared they'll be mean lol. But what's more painful? The fear of rudeness/being told he wasn't taking any more trans patients, or living with boobs until I can save $8000?

I'm really tired of being single. I hate being single. And I hate that I have been single for so long. I really do hope that I will have some luck after getting srs done. Of course I'm getting srs for myself but I can't say that that is not the only reason. I know more doors will open for me and I really hope that I'm able to find a partner.

I have not had many relationships unfortunately I have had a small number that I can count on one hand. The longest being a year and the rest being so short not sure if you could even count them as being as such. There is nothing more lonely then being alone and having nobody to call your own. Thankfully I have very good friends that I have known for many many years. But just to say I love you I have not said much and have also not been in love with many people.

Also being someones fantasy is not something I enjoy I rather despise it. Being used for someones sexual thrills is also something I hate. Being trans for the most part is a curse then something good. And sometimes I wish I was just born like I should have been. However I also find that I was made this way to teach people something, What I'm not 100% sure. I really hope things get better for me this year. And I hope that someday I will be with someone who loves me for who and what I am.

Ok enough pity party just had to get that off my chest.

Be patient with it. Im sure there is someone out there who will love you no matter what.
I feels for you.
Ive given up on love tho. Im sure youll have better luck..

Here is hoping Emo

You look good by the way. :3

Thinking i should stop flirting with everyone online. People might be taking it the wrong way...

Thanks Emo 

Dont thank me. Thank genetics. Lol

A huge, dark cloud has lifted, and the life-giving light can shine again.

Quote from: Jamie D on January 03, 2014, 11:54:01 PM
A huge, dark cloud has lifted, and the life-giving light can shine again.

That is beautiful!  Thank you.

"I can see cleeeaarly nooow the rain has gone!"

Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on January 03, 2014, 07:46:59 PM
Malachite's avatar is evil. *stab kill kill*

You know you love her.  Stop supressing it.   

Quote from: Malachite on January 04, 2014, 12:27:08 AM

You know you love her.  Stop supressing it.   

Only slightly more than Portia.

Quote from: ~RoadToTrista~ on January 04, 2014, 01:09:42 AM
Only slightly more than Portia.

Yay!  At least she's not last in your love ranking.

Coming up on a year on HRT and feeling like I have almost nothing to show for it. Also why can't I get the drive to do some more work on the customs I am doing for my hobby.

Is it weird that over time I am more inclined to be in a relationship with a crossdresser than a normal hetero guy? As experience when talking to them goes, they are far more down to earth, kind and not complete "body orifice intended for expeling waste generated from processed nutrients"s.

Quote from: AppleJack on January 04, 2014, 08:06:49 AM
Is it weird that over time I am more inclined to be in a relationship with a crossdresser than a normal hetero guy? As experience when talking to them goes, they are far more down to earth, kind and not complete "body orifice intended for expeling waste generated from processed nutrients"s.

Perhaps, although I have known a few guys who have admitted to crossdressing who are...well, creepy and perverted lol. Not because they crossdress, just their general attitude towards things.

Quote from: caleb. on January 04, 2014, 09:28:14 AM
Perhaps, although I have known a few guys who have admitted to crossdressing who are...well, creepy and perverted lol. Not because they crossdress, just their general attitude towards things.

Oh my god I am so glad it's not just me who's had my share of these guys lol! I seem to lurk the wrong corners of the internet a bit too much.