Grandma's sick...

And it's -13 degrees outside...

Quote from: Shaina on January 06, 2014, 10:55:38 PMAnd it's -13 degrees outside...

Add the wind on top of it and it's horrible.

Had a few painful reminders on the sorry state of my life. Debts, depression, dysphoria, all kicking in at various points throughout the day. Would be nice if I could do something about some of them, but other people always have to stand in the way of me doing anything to fix things.

Why is it that when I explicitly say that I am trying to meet other girls as friends for going out on weekend activities, having a few drinks, etc... Essentially for making new friends, while not mentioning my trans status, they seem to be hoping to enter into a lesbian relationship. Damn. If they are hoping for that, I have to disclose before things get messy.


How come every man will clock me with just pictures, but women seem completely trans-blind? I am not relly hoping to get into something half-serious due to the genitalia issue, and I am into full mobility mode right now as I mentioned, so if I get dramatically involved it will be worse.

PMS hit an hour a go. E is dropping, my implant is used up. Climbing the walls.

I guess no reserve supplies of E in the cupboard?

J

No but I've had a box of chocolates and feel sick.

Going to stop modding, anger levels are extreme. Jeez I feel off

Quote from: Jenny07 on January 07, 2014, 04:03:06 AM
I guess no reserve supplies of E in the cupboard?

J

Thanks I remembered the emergency pack. Never needed it before.

My endo did say in case of emergency, never understood what she meant!

Now take two and see me in the morning...

Quote from: Jenny07 on January 07, 2014, 04:19:22 AM
Now take two and see me in the morning...

Smart ass

Nightmare after only an hours sleep! What's another 24 hours without sleep, Jeesh.

You can borrow KAT's tree, it works

Quote from: Cindy on January 07, 2014, 04:45:42 AM
You can borrow KAT's tree, it works

Won't work. Kat made that just for you so it's special. It's like Thor's hammer, only he could pick it up.

My guitar playing all of a sudden got even sloppier.

Called my endo again to try to make an appointment. Got the machine again. Will they call me back? Well, they didn't call me back the last times I called.
I am expecting some packages. Two of them were supposed to arrive two weeks ago and the other was supposed to arrive a week ago. There is no sign of any of them.
I've seen news that postal workers no longer delivering to residences and have no idea when that start or where I'll get my mail when it does. The Canada Post website says nothing about it.

Car won't start. It refuses to work at -20F and it doesn't even have a union.

I made a mistake going into Victoria' s Secret with two of my cis friends. I'm super dysphoric about all the stuff I can't wear, and then I saw myself in the mirror. I'm downright ugly. I nearly cried right then and there.

Quote from: Willow on January 07, 2014, 02:14:55 PM
I made a mistake going into Victoria' s Secret with two of my cis friends. I'm super dysphoric about all the stuff I can't wear, and then I saw myself in the mirror. I'm downright ugly. I nearly cried right then and there.

*hugs tightly* I know how that feels hun.

Quote from: Willow on January 07, 2014, 02:14:55 PM
I made a mistake going into Victoria' s Secret with two of my cis friends. I'm super dysphoric about all the stuff I can't wear, and then I saw myself in the mirror. I'm downright ugly. I nearly cried right then and there.

I have seen your pictures - you are not ugly by any definition.  And you are just getting started.  Patience, hon.