After being in denial of being trans, I finally staryed hrt. Killing feeling for so long tends to make things ridiculously hard when emotions come running in. Yes, for the record, I'm in therapy, just a bad nightn

Going from black and white to Technicolor gets all of us baby. I would see something that had not the least effect on me before HRT and after HRT I couldn't stop crying. Takes getting used to. I went from cold, hard robot to a real live human. Give it some time, you will adapt to this as well. That's what we are all here for, to help each other when the Blue's are a playing. PM if you need to talk some more. I keep all PMs private and do not disclose anything except for potential self harm.