Please, please, please for the love of your friends, your family, everyone, avoid pro ana, and honestly"diets" in general.  Its all about a lifestyle change and NOT temporary self deprivation.  you found reasons to live once I started to feel alive, and none of them have to do with how I look.  I hope the same for you.  Btw, I lost more weight in shorter amounts of time the"right" way than I ever did any other way. again, the key isn't speed, its maintaining steady sustained loss over time. And never call yourself something you would be offended for someone else to call you

Quote from: Jenna Stannis on January 11, 2014, 02:37:31 PM
I'm a former dancer and personal trainer, but I keep diet and exercise advice to myself these days, as I've found that people don't believe what I tell them.

Anyway, looking rake thin doesn't necessarily equate with looking feminine, in my opinion. There are other factors to consider, such as your body type (ecto, meso or endomorph).

I haven't posted ant photos yet, but I have an extreemly thin bone structure. I've weighed 115 to 120 all my life and it is a normal weight for me. To give you an idea, I can actually touch my thumb with my pinky finger around my wrist very easily. My forefinger will actually overlap my thumb when doing this test. I usually just eat what I want and stay active but when the weather keeps you inside all day on your butt it's easy to gain a few pounds. Seriously, anything over 130 and I look like the pillsbury doughgirl, lol. That's why I try and watch myself when I'm stuck inside.

wel thanks everyone but I'm determined

Quote from: Adrilynn on January 11, 2014, 01:43:54 AM
Also I do not care if I die.

That's really sad.

Quote from: Starla on January 12, 2014, 10:15:40 AM
That's really sad.

Agreed. It's a shame she won't seek help.

Life is not about seeking the ideal weight or the perfect body. Life is about seeking happiness. Sometimes things can look terribly hard and no perspectives of a better future can be seen, but trust me, this is just a phase.

You can be happy regardless of your weight and even when you think you have nothing to lose, trust me, you have. And your family have. It is a terrible thing to lose someone you love and I am sure everyone can be missed regardless of how bad some family relationships may look like.

If you don't care if you die...please care about the people you love and the people that loves you. They do care, I am sure. This is the strenght that must keeps us here.

Sometimes it is easy to think this way, right? "I'm gonna kill myself and end everything, end all this suffering", but this is not a solution. You won't be happy doing this...you'll be nothing, just a dead corpse with people around your grave in despair.

So, please, for the sake of you and everyone that cares for you, don't enter this path.

As everyone here already stated, this must be the worst way of losing weight. I am losing weight really fast and just by exercising and eating less. You don't need to try to become an anorexic girl.

I don't want to tell you to get help/just feel better/give you tons of basic solutions you've already heard about. I know what it's like to feel morbidly depressed and helpless. I don't want to annoy you with a bunch information that you know about yourself way better than I do. So I'll just share some emotionally oriented things that worked for me, and hopefully some will sound good to you.

The only things that have really worked for me are distractions. If I can have fun doing something and I have a reason (or obligation) to keep doing it, that's how I tend to fix my problems.

Some examples:
-I don't know if you like video games, but maybe you could try something like DDR on light mode until you build the stamina to play harder difficulties. I found the game pretty addicting back when I first tried it.
-I find that being employed really helps me. I wasn't for a long while, and it contributed to weight gain. There is a lot of time now where I'm simply too busy to eat. It helps so much with weight control and helps get me used to not foraging for food when I'm bored.
-I'm a huge cheeseball and I some times take advantage of my grand affection for people to encourage myself (i.e. positive upswings). It usually doesn't work, but when it does, I try to do something productive while I feel playful and positive. Every little bit helps.

For weight loss, I tried all sorts of dieting, walking, exercise, and what have you. I eventually had to accept that it isn't in my personality to put up with those types of activities. The biggest help for me was understanding myself and manipulating my own character traits; fun and distractions, and small compromises in willpower just to get myself to "try new things," always telling myself that it was not a commitment just to try.

I find that you often have to embrace your own imperfections to achieve what you want. Life is too full of idealism. I think your spirit is there and you understand that you need to fight somehow, and you seem to have the wisdom to know and explore yourself. I hope you continue to expound on that virtue and find your way.

I have two suggestions:

1. Join Weight Watchers.  You didn't gain that extra weight in a few months and you shouldn't try to lose it in a few months.  A healthy weight loss should be in the range of 1/2 lb to 2 lb per week.  Think of losing 52 lbs in the next year, and another 52 lbs the year after that.  "Diets" don't work, you need to make permanent changes in the way you eat and move.  If you managed to lose 100 lbs on a crash diet, you would likely gain it all back and more in the next few years.   Alcohol is the caloric equivalent of sugar.  Mashed potatoes turn to sugar before they even get to your stomach.

2. Move!  If you can't run, walk.  If you can't walk, swim.  Water Aerobics can work wonders, and you weigh virtually nothing in the water.  It takes a full hour of moderate exercise on an elliptical exercise machine to burn 300 calories.  That's what's in one Snickers bar.  When you realize that the Snickers bar will cost you a full hour of huffing and puffing on a exercise machine, you might reconsider the Snickers bar.

Adrilynn,

Hey,  I know where you are coming form.  I've been there. I weighed in at 287 and I smoked over a pack a day.  I also did not care if I lived or I died.  That was in December 2010.  It sucked.....  It was either change my life or die.  I chose to live.  Below is what I did and I share it with you to encourage.  If I can be of help, just let me know, I will do what I can.

At first, I just started by cutting back the smoking.  Over two months, I went from around 30 per day to around 10 per day.  I also cut out ice cream.  That was it.  In Feb. 2011, I started to face what I was or at least started thinking about it.  I quit smoking in March of 2011 and started working out to help control the withdraw symptoms.  I lifted light weights and used an elliptical machine for aerobic activity.  The first day on that elliptical machine, I made seven minutes.  I just kept going and sometime in May 2011, I decided that it was silly to be eating that much and working out that much...it was to hard on my heart so I started a low calorie diet.  In June I started counseling.

Fast forward to today, I have been on HRT for almost a year.  I lost weight; gained a little, lost more and have just bounced my weight down to 191. (Bouncing the weight was intentional to get a more feminine body.) I will make my goal of 170 by March 1.  I have not smoked again.  I care if I live or die.  There is too much to live for in this life.   FFS is in March, SRS is in November.

You can do it without getting to radical.  Losing weight is just fewer calories and more activity.  Find what you like to do and do that.  Bike, walk, run, dace, row...whatever floats your boat.

Good Luck,

Hugs,

Jen

Quote from: Allyda on January 11, 2014, 06:36:05 PM
To give you an idea, I can actually touch my thumb with my pinky finger around my wrist very easily. My forefinger will actually overlap my thumb when doing this test.

I'm not sure what that proves. I can do that, and I'm a big boned 166 pound person. I could even do that when I weighed in at 230.

For me weight loss just involved eating better food more often (ie, cutting back the fast food from 7 nights a week to one or two), and walking more. It took two years, but I dropped 64 pounds. Had I started actively exercising it probably would've come off faster.

well thanks everyone but I'm pretty numb to feeling anything so...and in one day on ana I've already lost about 2 pounds actually a little more

Quote from: missadventure on January 12, 2014, 09:08:42 PM
I'm not sure what that proves. I can do that, and I'm a big boned 166 pound person. I could even do that when I weighed in at 230.

For me weight loss just involved eating better food more often (ie, cutting back the fast food from 7 nights a week to one or two), and walking more. It took two years, but I dropped 64 pounds. Had I started actively exercising it probably would've come off faster.

It's just a standard test doctors use to determine whether your big boned, medium boned or small boned. While in most people it is a pretty good indicator of build, it is only intended as one tool among many others to give Doctors an idea of ones bone structure. It's not considered completely accurate, but only to be used as a guideline for measuring BMI. Hope this explanation helps a little.

As someone else posted a person could have abnormally long fingers. I don't but if I did I'd have myself checked for the connective tissue disease (I forget it's name). I lost my very best friend of many years to this disease. Her aorta separated from it's connective tissue and she bled out on the way to the hospital. However with this disease, the toes are usually abnormally long as well. I apologize I don't mean to scare anyone. This just brought up a bad memory. Again I'm sorry.....................

Quote from: Allyda on January 13, 2014, 02:14:22 AM
However with this disease, the toes are usually abnormally long as well.

Welp, now I'm totally freaked out by my feet fingers... 

Quote from: missadventure on January 13, 2014, 08:15:10 AM
Welp, now I'm totally freaked out by my feet fingers... 

I'm sorry I didn't mean to freak you out. However what I'm saying is true. The good news is there's medication for this problem and it can be managed quite easily. Where alot who have this condition have complications is from not knowing about it. In addition, abnormally long fingers and toes are only a symptom of a POSSIBLE problem. having them doesn't mean you have the condition.  There are other symptoms that indicate it as well. I forget the medical name for it, but I do know it's a connective tissue disorder. I had myself checked for it because of my long limbs. However, this problem also mostly affects people who are very tall.

Like I said I'm not trying to worry anybody. I just lost a very good friend to this and felt awareness is better than ignorance.

I've already lost about 12 pounds since Saturday.  Started the ABC diet yesterday.