Ever since I had that last visit and possibly the last time I ever see or speak to my mother again,I have not been able to really feel good. I can't really function to the point of going out and feeling successful. I really could use some advice on how to feel better. Thank You. 

Big hugs hun!

I saw the youtube video you posted a while back and all I can really say is that for YOU, you did the right thing. It's going to be hard but in the end stepping back and protecting yourself from her will be in your best interests so you can move forward in your own life. This sounds like a perfect moment to go out and do something that you really enjoy doing, do it for nobody else but yourself.

This is for you baby! 

Sending you one million hugs