Did a fitness test thing at work today, I've gained fat and lost muscle since September, and everyone was saying it was good because it puts me more in the healthy range for a female, but it doesn't make me feel any better about myself, especially as it happened because I'm too dysphoric to see myself in the gym mirrors.
Then we played dodgeball, I was watching while the other half of our class played and managed to get smacked in the head. Hard. I'm now sitting in a drying room/cupboard off the bathroom because it's dark and reasonably quiet.