Quote from: Shantel on January 14, 2014, 05:19:54 PM
((((Hugs)))) I get you hon!

I miss those days, where I had more hope.

Quote from: caleb. on January 14, 2014, 05:21:16 PM
I miss those days, where I had more hope.

Hey where's that coming from?

Quote from: Shantel on January 14, 2014, 05:23:45 PM
Hey where's that coming from?

https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,157752.0.html

Well this is just absolutely great. Dysphoria won at 630 so unread of getting upi laid back down, fell asleep, and now woke up 12 hours later, missing a class I can only miss twice in the semestre. I'm also starved, I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday.

I envy those who can just walk out the door and be able to present female without having to spend 15-30 minutes on makeup. I'm just going to go to the caf in guy mode. I don't feel like making an event of it.
Can't wait for the day which I can.

Quote from: Willow on January 14, 2014, 05:30:25 PM
Well this is just absolutely great. Dysphoria won at 630 so unread of getting upi laid back down, fell asleep, and now woke up 12 hours later, missing a class I can only miss twice in the semestre. I'm also starved, I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday.

I envy those who can just walk out the door and be able to present female without having to spend 15-30 minutes on makeup. I'm just going to go to the caf in guy mode. I don't feel like making an event of it.
Can't wait for the day which I can.

*hugs* That sounds really horrible and familiar. I wish I knew something I could say to make it better.

Quote from: caleb. on January 14, 2014, 05:34:16 PM*hugs* That sounds really horrible and familiar. I wish I knew something I could say to make it better.

It seems pathetic but I think I'm quitting going full time after just over a week. Or maybe I just need hormones and more clothes. Unhappiness, or finding a way to get more money? I might just go to the school clinic for the perscription, make it easier than trying to wrangle woth insurance to see yet another off campus doctor.

My hours are being cut at my new job because the new manager decided not to fire the guy that the old manager was going to when the stores hours were cut.

Time to look for a second job or a new full time job

My mom has a lung infection....and she as other lung problems that she doesn't want to tell me about.

Dad keeps calling, he's sure to ask about classes. I don't want him to know that I've changed majors because I know he'll be angry about it.

Quote from: Willow on January 14, 2014, 07:10:36 PM
Dad keeps calling, he's sure to ask about classes. I don't want him to know that I've changed majors because I know he'll be angry about it.

He'll find out sooner or later.

Quote from: Emo on January 14, 2014, 07:20:13 PMHe'll find out sooner or later.

I know. I'm still scared though.

Quote from: Willow on January 14, 2014, 07:22:10 PM
I know. I'm still scared though.

well you got brothers and sisters here for emotional support.

I have to interact with my family a bit in order to find out about my family history. My curiosity about my ancestors is stronger than my hatred for them. However, my mother had the nerve to ignore my rules. It frustrates me that she still dares consider herself my equal.

Filmed a coming out vlog today.  I looked at it.  Big mistake.   Super slam dysphoria uppercut.  Suicidal thoughts arrived back from their holidays.  I hate this condition.

Hormones soon.

Quote from: Emmaline on January 15, 2014, 12:13:23 AM
Filmed a coming out vlog today.  I looked at it.  Big mistake.   Super slam dysphoria uppercut.  Suicidal thoughts arrived back from their holidays.  I hate this condition.

Hormones soon.

You too ?
Seems like a theme in our lives huh?

Parents forcing me into therapy.....

Therapist is NOT qualified to deal with gender disphoria, not to mention they'll be drug testing. (Smoked a bit after coming out.....) So I'm not thrilled about that at all.
Seems like a giant waste of time and money, it's all coming out of my pocket to get a therapist who isn't even qualified to work with me.

My Mother was actually trying to coach me... telling me not to mention anything gender related. She just wants me to get on antidepressants.

A thread I read yesterday. I was seriously thinking about erasing all online accounts. My gaming ones, fb, possibly even here. Decided I need my friends here, will likely still end the rest.

Mae Young dying.

QuoteYou too ?
Seems like a theme in our lives huh?

Tis why we are here babes. 

QuoteTherapist is NOT qualified to deal with gender disphoria

Major problems there Sarah Rose...  qualified or not, any therapist can help manage your interactions with your family, help with your survival and give you a place to voice your feelings.  Try for therapy away from your parents- and hammer on that gender subject.  It may not seem like it right now, but if you can hold on, you will be free to make your own path before you know it.