Quote from: caleb. on January 18, 2014, 11:33:52 AM
Ah right, I forgot how little privacy you're afforded in your dorms.

Has your dad ever said why he won't let you live in your own? I mean...I can't see why anyone would want to live like that, nevermind the trans bit.

He says convenience beats out saving money. Doesn't even factor comfort into the equation.
Can't live off campus anyways as a first year student.

Quote from: Edge on January 17, 2014, 08:38:42 AM
My last ex threatened to kill me, used my triggers to hurt and threaten me, had episodes whenever he drank where he would get very scary, had me walking on eggshells to avoid his anger, and lied, manipulated, and threatened me into staying with him.
You're a monster?

I don't want to be capable of love. I thought I wasn't anymore and it was great. (My son doesn't count since it's a different dynamic.) And then I slipped and care about someone who can never feel the same for me. I have no idea why the ability to care about people came back, but I don't like it. No one can ever love me.

I wouldnt say no one...

Name one. I know all the people in my life and I can't name anyone. (Again, my son doesn't count because it's a different dynamic. I don't count either in this case because I'm me.)

Nasty soup

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 01:30:33 PM
Name one. I know all the people in my life and I can't name anyone. (Again, my son doesn't count because it's a different dynamic. I don't count either in this case because I'm me.)

Just... People.

That makes no sense.

I should have started preparing dinner 45 minutes ago, but as with every other day, whenever I realise it I am filling online CVS... I rarely ever stop to relax a bit.

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 01:47:15 PM
That makes no sense.

Makes a lot of sense if you knew what i was thinking.

I can't read minds, but I've met a lot of people who got aggressively angry with me because they thought I should be able to.

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 02:28:42 PM
I can't read minds, but I've met a lot of people who got aggressively angry with me because they thought I should be able to.

I think you're very capable of love.
I reject your reality and substitute my own.

I'm quite obviously still capable of love since I happen to be falling for someone who could never care about me back and this makes me weak and pathetic. Weakness is disgusting and I thought I was over this stupid habit.
I am incapable of being loved.

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 02:49:10 PM
I'm quite obviously still capable of love since I happen to be falling for someone who could never care about me back and this makes me weak and pathetic. Weakness is disgusting and I thought I was over this stupid habit.
I am incapable of being loved.

Lies!

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 02:49:10 PM
I'm quite obviously still capable of love since I happen to be falling for someone who could never care about me back and this makes me weak and pathetic. Weakness is disgusting and I thought I was over this stupid habit.
I am incapable of being loved.

Again, everything you do is a decision. You can be loved, if you choose to be. Meanwhile you will do or say things that keep people away without even thinking about it. When you decide you are worth being loved, your views will change and people will see you differently.

1) I have NO control over what other people do.
2) You have NO idea what I do or say. How dare you make assumptions about me or my life.
3) It doesn't matter what I do or say. I know this because, contrary to what people keep assuming, I am not a complete idiot.
4) I NEVER said I wasn't worth being loved. How dare you put words in my mouth.
5) Just because I'm worth it, doesn't mean I've loved.
Not that anyone bothers listening to a word I say. They're too busy trying to tell me who I am, what I do, what I think, and what my life is like even though they have no idea and it is incredibly insulting. But I can't do anything to stop them because defending myself just makes things worse for me.

Okay.
Everyone take a step back.
I dont want to choose sides because i see both of you as my friends. I see you both as right.
Edge is right in all his points. We should probably back up a bit and let him be himself and that we cant control other peoples actions or feelings.
But lordkat is right that there are people who love you but sometimes edge does not see it.
Everyone pushes away sometimes and its a shame this happens but this is life and we should chill before its too late.

This Pepsi didn't give me a pain-inducing burn in the back of my throat like I thought it would.

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 03:51:30 PM
1) I have NO control over what other people do.
Never said you did

2) You have NO idea what I do or say. How dare you make assumptions about me or my life.
I do have an idea, not exact words but an idea. This is from it happening before. I dare because I wish to improve your mood.

3) It doesn't matter what I do or say. I know this because, contrary to what people keep assuming, I am not a complete idiot.
Again, never said anything about being an idiot or even hinting at that. How dare you assume I did.

4) I NEVER said I wasn't worth being loved. How dare you put words in my mouth.
You did say you weren't capable of being loved. I quoted it.

5) Just because I'm worth it, doesn't mean I've loved.
Not that anyone bothers listening to a word I say. They're too busy trying to tell me who I am, what I do, what I think, and what my life is like even though they have no idea and it is incredibly insulting. But I can't do anything to stop them because defending myself just makes things worse for me.
No is trying to tell you who you are or what you think or even what your life is like. When you say what these things are, I would hope they were truth and take it as such. I only gave advice. All advice is just that, not a law that says you have to follow it, just a possible solution. There was no insult.

Quote from: Emo on January 18, 2014, 04:05:14 PM
But lordkat is right that there are people who love you but sometimes edge does not see it.

You can't name any either.

Quote from: Edge on January 18, 2014, 04:09:06 PM
You can't name any either.

Jesus edge! I love you.




>_<

You just met me over the internet a few days ago.