At a very young age, I developed the image of who I was suppose to be. It was very specific, her (my) hair, eyes, nose, height, body, etc. I went to bed every night and imagined her (me). That person remains with me today even. I've been on HRT for close to three years and I can never become that person, I'll never be 'right' no matter what I do. I think I'm beginning to realize in my case, my birth sealed my fate. Transition won't change anything for me.

You and I are at about the same point in development with similar results. Aside from what has already been said (death and serious health concerns) the only thing that would stop me would be a very negative reaction from my 14-year-old son. I am not out to him yet, but plan to come out before my six month mark. I, too, consider the six month mark my rubicon--my point of no return.

Jane

Yep,

Another vote for death....

Hugs,

Jen

At this point, nothing. I might be cheating, though - I finished transition over four years ago, and at this point re-transitioning/transitioning back would be even more work than doing it the first time. I'm stuck with this, blessedly.

(Also lucky enough to have a marriage that survived transition; I think the threat of losing my wife, had it come up, is the only thing that might have made me tempted to stop.)

My daughter. She is my world. I am so happy she is so accepting to my transition. But if I felt it was affecting her in a negative way, then I might be more apt to at least hiding it till she was a bit older. She is currently 13. After that death...

How do you spell death again?

Quote from: Cindy on January 19, 2014, 02:18:05 AM
How do you spell death again?

Thanatos

I might give up after getting splashed with acid by the truck hitting me knocking me into the trains path, then again, maybe!

Theocracy and Politics...  I'm more worried about transition options being taken away than I am about stopping voluntarily.

I would say death except for the fact that there are already enough folks out there who would happily see us dead. I don't want to give them that satisfaction.
Too many of us already die from this, often from our own hands.  I plan to live... and if I'm denied my rights to be who I am... I'll continue to fight back.

I've considered death too many times in the past to allow myself to entertain that option now.

Death or a persistent vegetative state - until I stop procrastinating on writing out a personal directive.

Then it'll just be death.

Quote from: ErinM on January 19, 2014, 03:54:12 PM
Death or a persistent vegetative state - until I stop procrastinating on writing out a personal directive.

Then it'll just be death.

persistent vegetative state , not a good idea , especially if recycled dreams are involved.

death, health complications wont stop me, id let transition kill me.

I've twice (or more) been at your point and ran back in my younger days. What caused it was the inner conflict between my experiment and the desire to be "normal". At 6ft tall, balding and big everything, normal as a female was far off the radar. Best stick with being a guy.

Kia Ora,

Nothing...Not even death...."I'll be back!"

Metta Zenda

Nothing. Ever.

Quote from: stephaniec on January 18, 2014, 07:00:08 PM
I'm just wondering what things if any would cause you to do an abrupt turn and stop transition If any thing would.

I've tried to start transitioning a couple of times,  I love the changes to my body but I back out each time.  I'm like you my genetics really seem to favor transition.   But people started to notice my skin and body shape.  An old friends mother who I've known forever only figured out who I was because I was with my wife.     My wife was also getting really upset and I was afraid to tell my children.  Oh and I'm worried the shock will push my 83 year old father into the grave.  So I'm in limbo, probably till I die.  All I can say is it's much easier when you don't have a family and are younger. 

Somebody had to be the contrarian.

I am a woman, and I can't go back to being male.   I haven't taken any hormones yet, and I am not sure when that will ever happen.   If I do take hormones and they damage my health, I would stop taking them,  but that doesn't mean that I would ever go back to being male.   I am 67 and each day is just one more step to pushing up daisies.    Emotionally I can make changes daily to letting myself feel more and more effeminate.   I can experiment with my manner of dress and make up.   I can be more and more aggressive on insisting that I be addressed in the female gender.   An when death brings my rebirth into the next of God's Worlds I can continue my transition in whatever form possible until gender does not matter.   I guess that when gender doesn't matter to me any more than my transition will end and I will be what I will be.   

Quote from: JordanBlue on January 18, 2014, 08:18:36 PM
I'm 59 and I've only been on HRT one week.  My mind is already more clear and focused that I can ever remember.  I feel alive.  I feel happy.  I have hope.  I can remember how I felt before.  I was depressed. I felt like the walking dead. I had zero hope.  The only thing that would make me stop my transition would be death.

I remember your first posts, JordanBlue.  Readying this makes me really happy!!

I've been on HRT 4 months and mentally haven't felt this normal for a very long time

perhaps other than just death maybe something like the world ending and me dying, lol,
I have procastinated for so long and have now started to move forward as me and nothing on earth will stop me ever again.
each of us I am sure have things that control our actions and pathes we choose, though and I am very comfortable
on this one. but this is for me and my world
hope you can find your path and enjoy walk.
Jerri