Quote from: Willow on January 22, 2014, 04:39:50 AM
Inertia, meaning finances.

I don't want to, but I feel as if I need to.
And there is shame, what of my small classes where everyone knows my face? I can't just revert in those. And of course, every day I have class I have a small class as well.

College is among the most accepting environments.  Go androgynous.  Take the pressure of yourself.

You are TG.  TG's morph.

Quote from: Jamie D on January 22, 2014, 05:00:10 AMCollege is among the most accepting environments.  Go androgynous.  Take the pressure of yourself.

You are TG.  TG's morph.

But I don't want to. I need to be me. But I don't know if I can.

Quote from: Willow on January 22, 2014, 05:03:40 AM
But I don't want to. I need to be me. But I don't know if I can.

Then be the best "you," you can be, under the circumstances.

You have tied yourself in a Gordian knot.  Cut something away.

Quote from: Willow on January 22, 2014, 05:03:40 AM
But I don't want to. I need to be me. But I don't know if I can.

Currently Im presenting in classes androgynous...
I think its ok to take one step at a time , I d love it if I was able to present full time , but you know there are issues,,,facial hair, voice etc...

when I ll feelok with myself I plan to just go as a girl and be like " whats the big deal " or somethin, you can do that if you want im pretty sure people wont mind at all.

just feel comfortable

Quote from: FalsePrincess on January 22, 2014, 05:12:16 AMCurrently Im presenting in classes androgynous...
I think its ok to take one step at a time , I d love it if I was able to present full time , but you know there are issues,,,facial hair, voice etc...

when I ll feelok with myself I plan to just go as a girl and be like " whats the big deal " or somethin, you can do that if you want im pretty sure people wont mind at all.

just feel comfortable

How do you of all people present androgynously?
I've already taken the step of presenting female all but 2-3 hours in a week, for showers. It's too late to go back.

Quote from: Willow on January 22, 2014, 05:17:56 AM
How do you of all people present androgynously?
I've already taken the step of presenting female all but 2-3 hours in a week, for showers. It's too late to go back.

At the state we are now I believe that we can eeer shift between genders easily...
its fun being androgynous you can tell that people struggle about how to call you and wonder whats going on also you get all these looks ,I wonder what they re thinking , anyway I dont plan to stay androgynous for long  , my face might be rather feminine but my body is not ,nor is my voice etc , thats why I believe at this state it would be difficult for me to pull it off succesfully...

But presenting androgynous has tought me something , that people wont mind , sure they might get a little confused but if you are ok then its fine...
I belive its a step I have to take , first I was looking as a normal male dude whatever , now androgynous and soon female...
thats why I dont mind , cause I know that soon...soon...lol

The strike is still going with no end in sight. I hope we don't lose the semester. Clearly neither side give a flying fudge about the students.
Students loans are stressing me out. Why can't they ever do anything efficiently?
My apartment is a huge mess and I can never seem to get on top of it.
My books are in bad shape because they were knocked off the shelf and stepped on.
I apparently can't even say something nice to someone without them thinking I'm hitting on them. I have zero interest in this person and even less now.

I just saw the home my father had identified as "the only decent and good looking").

I had an anxiety attack upon entering. The low ceiling made everything look like prison cells.  I would pay to not to live there.

Looks like he also does not believe in my claustrophobia. And he wants me to exchange transition for this?

Quote from: FalsePrincess on January 22, 2014, 05:30:15 AM
At the state we are now I believe that we can eeer shift between genders easily...
its fun being androgynous you can tell that people struggle about how to call you and wonder whats going on also you get all these looks ,I wonder what they re thinking
But presenting androgynous has tought me something , that people wont mind , sure they might get a little confused but if you are ok then its fine...

Hey Princess, I get you on this girl! There was a time where you had to present either fully male or female according to the demands of the "gatekeepers", but it's no longer true here where I live. Besides I've always been a rebel who hates living up to other people's expectations in the boxes they have prepared for me.

Reading some of my posts from back in 2008, soon after I joined. Including my blog ones.

*sigh*

I was such a different person back then. Things were... yeah... it's not important.

Quote from: Sephirah on January 22, 2014, 11:26:15 AM
Reading some of my posts from back in 2008, soon after I joined. Including my blog ones.

*sigh*

I was such a different person back then. Things were... yeah... it's not important.

Im curious now...

So this seems to be my only option:

http://www.inmofueros20.com/venta/piso/barakaldo/arteagabeitia/FU2641?index=0


- 65 square meters
- All the windows are outdoors
- Terrace
- Gets sunlight
- 2nd floor, no lift (and impossible to fit one)
- Facade and roof are new (you can see the difference compared to the others)
- two rooms. Originally three but one was removed to increase the size of the living room and add a dinning area to the kitchen
- Heating through electric acumulators, option to install natural gas
- Windows with climalit thermal bridge (half of them)
- Bathroom  had a reform
- Kitchen is brand new with new appliances, and easy to clean. Lots of light
- Furnished (I'm throwing out half of them to make more room)
- five minutes away from Metro, ten minutes away from BEC (Bilbao Exhibition centre)
- Optional storage room
- Sadly, located in Barakaldo. Second biggest city here after Bilbao, but it is not the same thing

My mom came home early....

Quote from: AppleJack on January 22, 2014, 12:39:50 PM
So this seems to be my only option:

http://www.inmofueros20.com/venta/piso/barakaldo/arteagabeitia/FU2641?index=0


- 65 square meters
- All the windows are outdoors
- Terrace
- Gets sunlight
- 2nd floor, no lift (and impossible to fit one)
- Facade and roof are new (you can see the difference compared to the others)
- two rooms. Originally three but one was removed to increase the size of the living room and add a dinning area to the kitchen
- Heating through electric acumulators, option to install natural gas
- Windows with climalit thermal bridge (half of them)
- Bathroom  had a reform
- Kitchen is brand new with new appliances, and easy to clean. Lots of light
- Furnished (I'm throwing out half of them to make more room)
- five minutes away from Metro, ten minutes away from BEC (Bilbao Exhibition centre)
- Optional storage room
- Sadly, located in Barakaldo. Second biggest city here after Bilbao, but it is not the same thing

Looks nice enough to me!

Quote from: Shantel on January 22, 2014, 01:01:07 PM
Looks nice enough to me!

My parents really seem to love it. Me... I don't know. I'd paint everything in nuclear white, throw away everything and live minimalistically... Something weird happened with the spatial perception about me, because it is the first time I have an claustrophobic outburst since 2012. Tomorrow I'm checking it with two friends, but we need to make our move fast or we lose it on Monday.

Tomorrow I will measure it, but if it is smaller than 240 I won't live happy.

Quote from: Sephirah on January 22, 2014, 11:26:15 AM
Reading some of my posts from back in 2008, soon after I joined. Including my blog ones.

*sigh*

I was such a different person back then. Things were... yeah... it's not important.

*hugs* I feel emotional sometimes when I look towards my past too, Sephirah. Sometimes I feel like I was happier, sometimes I feel like things were worse. But we always look at things differently through hindsight.

Stupid money pit lemon car back in shop yet again. 

Quote from: caleb. on January 22, 2014, 01:17:04 AM
omg I am a dumbass. -_-

My brother has a friend who sometimes mentions to others that I'm trans (not appreciated, because I even spoke with him about it). So one of these girls who was told came to visit, and I don't think she picked up on me being trans. She just was like "wow...you're way shorter than your brother" and was surprised that I was the older one as well. So, I guess maybe she didn't make the connection that I was the transgender one. But I let the laptop fall asleep with Susan's pulled up, and they borrowed it to order pizza while I was napping. So my carelessness eradicated any doubt she may have had. If I'm going to be stealth in the future, I will have to be more conscientious of this stuff.

LOL. My brother came home and said she didn't see the transgender stuff, but when they searched for "pizza" a porno site I had been on came up and she was like "omg...what." My brother points to the references to girly parts and goes "do you think I'd watch that?" So as far as I know she just thinks I'm a dirty perv.

Quote from: caleb. on January 22, 2014, 04:18:59 PM
LOL. My brother came home and said she didn't see the transgender stuff, but when they searched for "pizza" a porno site I had been on came up and she was like "omg...what." My brother points to the references to girly parts and goes "do you think I'd watch that?" So as far as I know she just thinks I'm a dirty perv.

If the shoe.....Oops! LOL 

Quote from: AppleJack on January 22, 2014, 07:38:30 AM
I just saw the home my father had identified as "the only decent and good looking").

I had an anxiety attack upon entering. The low ceiling made everything look like prison cells.  I would pay to not to live there.

Looks like he also does not believe in my claustrophobia. And he wants me to exchange transition for this?

I could get claustophobic just looking at the bathroom arrangement. I like the bright pink color of the walls though. It kinda stinks the deal though.