So I've been to a gender psychologist, and I've always been so adamant that I didn't have gender dysphoria to people around me, I can't cope with the concept that it implies a disorientated sense of self-perspective.

Anyways, so many questions and answers later, the gender psychologist did use the term gender dysphoric to describe me, with context to my life history, childhood history of female-dominated behaviours since childhood, assuming a female look throughout my early teenage years - and a discomfort with projecting a masculine image.

And so now, coming to terms I have gender dysphoria makes so depressed and so much more self-conscious.

For me, my whole "dysphoria" is entirely on an emotional and social level. And for me, that has always separated me from fitting myself into a typical transgender model, because I don't have the body-fixation that transgender people most commonly have, I don't think getting a vagina or breasts would change the way I project my identity so it's not a topic I have fixation on, so I put myself in the nonbinary catagory, although I want an estrogen prescription. For me it's just as long as I project a feminine self-image, socially/stylistically/facially, then that's all I intend to bring my self-concept and my self-projection into equilibrium. I don't perceive gender as having anything to do with having a vagina.

But I don't feel "gender dysphoric", I just really dislike the title of it and it's quite depressing in the sense of making me extremely self-conscious,

I also want to ask: Do I fit into the transgender catagory rather than the nonbinary catagory, if I perceive the social projection as a concept completely distinct concept from the body?

Might it be better for you to figure out what changes you want in your life, than try to pin a label on yourself?

I know exactly what I want, an estrogen prescription.

Having a label makes things easier, I don't feel confident to call myself transgendered due to the lack of the body-fixation but I feel it makes sense that I should.

Non-binary is technically under the transgender umbrella, but you don't need to call yourself anything you don't want to and there are many different ways to be trans. You don't have to fit someone else's narrative.

Quote from: BLZA on January 24, 2014, 12:08:22 PM
I know exactly what I want, an estrogen prescription.

Having a label makes things easier, I don't feel confident to call myself transgendered due to the lack of the body-fixation but I feel it makes sense that I should.

I really do understand this. When I began thinking of myself as MtF, it helped me know where to go for help and whom to ask. There was a trail blazed for me which helped dispel some of the uncertainty.

As for lack of body fixation, your body will feminize on estrogen. Your skin will get soft, you'll grow breasts, and a number of other things might happen. If you are OK with that, then clearly there is some cross-gender body issues involved. Cisgender males normally wouldn't be comfortable with breasts or a feminized body.

Not all transgender folks hate our bodies. I want a female body, but I have no issue with my male one, except in as much as it is not female, and makes it more difficult to live or look the way I want.

@Edge I don't feel pressured to fit into someone elses narrative - I simply find more comfort in having a more objective classification because it's nice to know you can relate to people on certain levels, not just be this off-the-binary/spectrum outlier kind of thing.

I'll just go with nonbinary then I guess because half-transgendered doesn't flow right.