As i've posted many times I suffer from eczema, right now it's so bad I have next to no skin on my arms, legs & chest. The pain is unbearable as is the depression, i've spent the last few days thinking about taking ALL of my anti-depressants to put an end to the pain & misery.
If a dog or cat was suffering like this then we wouldn't hesitate to have them put out of their misery but that level of compassion ends with animals, us humans have to endure the pain just so others don't have to deal with the trauma of losing a loved one, we're a selfish breed.
One ray of hope on the horizon is that my mum is picking me up tomorrow & taking me to A & E, she says she's not going to leave the place until they take me in for treatment.
If I do get a hospital bed then i'm going to push for them to put me back on imno suppressants, the list of side effects are long & serious, these tablets may take years off of my life but if things keep going on like this then if I don't get a hospital bed then I can't see me making it till next week.
I can't sleep due to the pain, the only time I manage to sleep is when i'm soaking in a bath & I often wake up coughing & spluttering where i've almost slipped under the water, it would be for the best if I didn't wake up next time I doze off.