Quote from: allisonsteph on January 31, 2014, 05:47:29 PM
At times I think that if I am not able to secure employment I will have to de-transition and go back into the working world as a male.

Thankfully I have a very loving and supporting partner (FTM) who reminds me of how miserable I was trying to live as a male, and how much happier and healthier I have been since I started transition.

I currently have identical profiles on a few major job search websites under both my male and female names. Neither has received any attention worth mentioning, so I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not having a hard time finding work because I am trans, I am having a hard time finding work because the job market sucks, particularly in my field.

doesn't help that the stock market is falling apart either.

I vote against death. Not going to let him stop me either. I recently found this diamond hard spot of stubborn that won't allow me to stop. I will die if I go back, that's a certainty. No health risk is more dire than that, so none will keep me from pressing forward. If the worst case happens, like Anatta I'll be back.

Quote from: Magdalena on January 31, 2014, 07:25:34 PM
I vote against death. Not going to let him stop me either. I recently found this diamond hard spot of stubborn that won't allow me to stop. I will die if I go back, that's a certainty. No health risk is more dire than that, so none will keep me from pressing forward. If the worst case happens, like Anatta I'll be back.

well, I realize now each day forward just keeps reinforcing the concrete being laid down preventing any return. It just feels too good.

Quote from: stephaniec on January 31, 2014, 03:09:21 PM
for me personally if there is such a thing as a miracle drug this is it. I'm only speaking for my self and its affect on me , but it's so amazing the 180 degree turn from wanting to jump off a building every day of your life to having a future with feeling so complete. I'm a woman and estrogen is letting me feel like I've wanted all my life.

I couldn't have said this better myself.

Not sorry to say it.
Death.
I have no rhyme nor reason to ever look back.
I hated my male self, and trying to repress it as long as I did, effected me greatly. 

Financial collapse. Ultimately the biggest problem facing any transitioner, apart from death. I'm surprised not many have mentioned this aspect.

Whether you're receiving HRT from the NHS or government scheme or funding your own treatment through private healthcare, when your money stops, there is no transition. And if you're in the middle of transitioning or even recieving maintenance HRT doses, then it'll be the beginning of a constant return to the male form.

As it seems the Western economies will (and are beginning to) collapse like dominoes, the worry that I'll be getting into a long-time life-long commitment that'll require thousands of pounds each year....at exactly the time of financial unrest and collapse, is kind of insane logically speaking.

And that's what niggles at my mind (apart from the potential of screwing up my body and loosing all my friends and my job, etc etc).

I do very much hope I'm wrong though. And in years to come, my comment will be laughably morose and pessimistic

Death. Nothing else would or could stop me from being me.

Quote from: "I'm Stella Stanhope, and that's why I drink". on February 01, 2014, 05:04:56 PM
Financial collapse. Ultimately the biggest problem facing any transitioner, apart from death. I'm surprised not many have mentioned this aspect.

Whether you're receiving HRT from the NHS or government scheme or funding your own treatment through private healthcare, when your money stops, there is no transition. And if you're in the middle of transitioning or even recieving maintenance HRT doses, then it'll be the beginning of a constant return to the male form.

As it seems the Western economies will (and are beginning to) collapse like dominoes, the worry that I'll be getting into a long-time life-long commitment that'll require thousands of pounds each year....at exactly the time of financial unrest and collapse, is kind of insane logically speaking.

And that's what niggles at my mind (apart from the potential of screwing up my body and loosing all my friends and my job, etc etc).

I do very much hope I'm wrong though. And in years to come, my comment will be laughably morose and pessimistic

If this were to happen after what I've been through, there'd be no reason to live, period. So for me death still applies.

Scientists at the huge collider accidentally creating a black hole that swallows the earth. That'd probably do it.


or the sun going supernova


maybe a zombie apocalypse, although that one might only slow things down a tad.

Quote from: big head horsey-face on February 01, 2014, 05:26:49 PM
Scientists at the huge collider accidentally creating a black hole that swallows the earth. That'd probably do it.


or the sun going supernova


maybe a zombie apocalypse, although that one might only slow things down a tad.

transgender zombie ,might work

Come on girls, I think we're getting a little outrageous here: supernova's, black holes sucking on the earth. Why not a Gamma ray burst or a big asteroid -wait I've got it! -Alien invasion......................lmao.

I didn't mention finances b/c there'd be no return to the male form for me... it'd suck, but the only real issue would be osteoporosis. (I've had the downstairs fully remodeled, as it were. No T factories anymore = no risk of return.)

Quote from: Jenna Marie on February 01, 2014, 06:00:18 PM
I didn't mention finances b/c there'd be no return to the male form for me... it'd suck, but the only real issue would be osteoporosis. (I've had the downstairs fully remodeled, as it were. No T factories anymore = no risk of return.)

And this girls is my eventual goal. No more T factories and my downstairs remodeled to match as best as possible what I should have been born with.

Quote from: Allyda on February 01, 2014, 06:36:31 PM
And this girls is my eventual goal. No more T factories and my downstairs remodeled to match as best as possible what I should have been born with.

makes sense

Allyda : I hope you get there someday soon. I finished transition a while before, but that was the moment when it was guaranteed that no one could *force* me back.

Quote from: Jenna Marie on February 01, 2014, 07:48:17 PM
Allyda : I hope you get there someday soon. I finished transition a while before, but that was the moment when it was guaranteed that no one could *force* me back.

Thanks. I'm very happy for you for reaching your happiness.

As for me, I own my own home, my truck and boat are both paid for, my home is nearly paid for (owe about 6k) and the only family I have left is my adopted Mom and she's too elderly to make the trip here from Orlando to visit -& she knows I'm transitioning anyway. So there really isnt anyone or anything anyone could hold over me to stop me from transitioning. I've just been miserable too long. These last 5 years, and especially this last month on hrt are/is the happiest I've ever been since I can remember. I feel better than I have in years. As I stated in an earlier post -I've reached my rubicon. I'll never turn back.