So my parents divorced when I was a baby and I've never really felt close to her because of custody issues I know she loved me I was the baby of the family but she constantly tried to hurt my dad and my other family so I grew up with a lot of resentment towards her. She has tried to reach out a few times but I just ignored the situation but now with my decision to start transitioning I feel like I might need my mom. I don't know if it's a selfish idea but I know my family will basically exile me when the truth comes out ( which I'm ok with) but I'm seriously considering tracking her down in the next year or so.

Yea I think I'm gonna try to reconnect with her but first I have to track her down lol

yeah, definitely do it and don't put it off. I wish I had told my own mother about some of this stuff when I was young, but like you, I had some resentment because she walked away from all 5 of us kids when I was just three. Never had any sort of relationship with her outside of rarely seeing her, the others did spend some time with her, but I still held onto some resentment. When I was just starting college though, she was killed by a drunk driver on her way home from work, so therein lies some regret that I didn't put some effort into it as my siblings did.

Geezus I feel bad for you gals...((Hugs))

My mom and pop got a divorce, my mom was really an attractive, vivacious woman and all kinds of creepy suitors showed up in her life. By the time I was 18 I had punched out three of them and sent them running, one kind of scared me when one fell down the basement stairs backwards, if I had killed him I would have wound up in prison. But my mom was stupid about men and fell prey to their attention and flattery and I wasn't going to tolerate them groping her in front of me. Years later when I began transition she and my sister felt a need to criticize me, it became a toxic relationship and I came to resent them so I cut them off for ten years. I dreamed that I should go see my mom and put it all behind us. We had a nice conversation and hugs. I'm glad I did that because two months later she dropped dead.

Yea I just need to figure out exactly how to track a person