Seriously, enough with the snow.  It's been snowing constantly where I live and it's driving me insane. To top it all off, we are supposed to be getting a huge blizzard this weekend which is right in time for my birthday.  And all this shoveling is really showing me how much weaker I'm getting with hormones.  I've never been strong in any way, but now even picking up snow is becoming a challenge; although, it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to shovel and deal with horrible driving conditions almost everyday. Enough.  Sorry just had to bitch about this somewhere.   

My dad makes me so angry. Apparently he said to my brother "yeah, Caleb isn't applying for any jobs."

How the hell does he even know? First of all, the jobs I have been applying for, that HE suggested, he himself said take like 6 weeks to get back to anyone. Second, maybe part of the reason I'm not getting calls back yet is because my dad wanted me to go on a trip with him next week to Las Vegas. So when do I put my start date? AFTER THE TRIP because I can't well ask for a week off right when I start a job, now can I?

I only agreed to go to Vegas with him out of guilt, because he kept saying he wanted to take me on a trip and I kept saying no because we have a really bad relationship. And this is part of the reason why. He's so pathetic he feels a need to make stuff up about his own kid. Now it'd be another thing to inquire as to whether or not my brother knew I was applying to jobs. But no. He assumes the worst and then goes spreading lies. I knew the trip was a mistake. All I did was make life just that little extra harder for myself because I didn't want to risk hurting his feelings by saying no again.

Stuff like this just reminds me why I hate him. This is just one lie of many. He lies to his kids, his wife, his coworkers, anyone who will listen. I don't even know who my dad is because I've never been able to separate the truth from the lies.

*sigh* Oh well, this will make moving all the more sweet. All I have to do is finish my degree and then get my finances in order. My brother moved in a fit of rage at dad, lol, and never even told dad he was leaving. Just took all his stuff in the middle of the night and stopped calling. I am tempted to follow suit.

Sometimes, I am tempted to drop my degree so I have nothing holding me back, but that's a bad idea considering I am SO close to being done that it would be a total shame and a waste.

Sometimes, I am tempted to drop my degree so I have nothing holding me back, but that's a bad idea considering I am SO close to being done that it would be a total shame and a waste.
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Don't do that, bite the bullet and stick it out, you can cut and run afterward. Sorry you're dad is so lacking in character, don't let his shortcomings derail you.

Sooooo sick of body hair. Can't stand it. Just shaved damn near my entire body today, and its already back. And then there's my back, that I can't reach.
Laser on everything won't work, most of it, ourside the chest, pubic area, legs, and forearms are too light. But I want it all gone. NOW! It's so gross and nasty.

Quote from: Shantel on February 05, 2014, 05:47:08 PM
Don't do that, bite the bullet and stick it out, you can cut and run afterward. Sorry you're dad is so lacking in character, don't let his shortcomings derail you.

You're right. I just can't finish this thing soon enough!

Quote from: birkin on February 05, 2014, 06:08:06 PM
You're right. I just can't finish this thing soon enough!

Hang in there hon!  ((hugs))

Quote from: V M on February 04, 2014, 09:14:45 PM
I know the feeling   

Hugs

-hugs-

It seems there are more jobs suited for me in Indiana than here....that being said, a few require some writing and journalism experience in addition to the degree. That is something I do not have.

I barely saw D. I also feel particularly emotional today. I'm pathetic.

I think my PS2 is messing up because on Sunday my sister spilled a little bit of soda on it. -_-

I wish I could be tall and have longer hair without looking like a girl. Instead, I'm short and look like a girl.

I deleted my "looking back" Facebook video and regret it.

Quote from: birkin on February 04, 2014, 09:25:13 PM
I hate my bachelor's degree. At the time, I didn't really care about being a man with a women's studies degree, but now I just feel embarrassed about it. When I have my Master's I can gloss over that fact a little, since it's in Communications, but this sucks some heavy balls.

I wouldn't worry about it. If it really bothers you, perhaps you could look into other majors you may have nearly qualified for. I'm assuming that Cultural Studies would have had a significant overlap?

Quote from: Edge on February 05, 2014, 09:42:34 PM
I wish I could be tall and have longer hair without looking like a girl. Instead, I'm short and look like a girl.

a) I didn't think you looked like a girl in the photo you posted in Show Yourself.

b) I've presented male for 32 years... and I'm short. Really short.

Quote from: Gwynne on February 05, 2014, 10:49:42 PM
a) I didn't think you looked like a girl in the photo you posted in Show Yourself.

Thanks, but I barely ever pass in real life. Even when I've introduced myself as Victor, I still get called "she" repeatedly.

Quote from: Edge on February 05, 2014, 11:00:38 PMThanks, but I barely ever pass in real life. Even when I've introduced myself as Victor, I still get called "she" repeatedly.

I get he with Willow sometimes, like when it was on a form I filled out and gave to someone >.>

Quote from: Gwynne on February 05, 2014, 10:48:30 PM
I wouldn't worry about it. If it really bothers you, perhaps you could look into other majors you may have nearly qualified for. I'm assuming that Cultural Studies would have had a significant overlap?

Oh wow! That's actually so smart! I should have thought of that. I almost qualify for Psychology...I took a lot of Psych options. And I have all my intercultural requirements completed. I think, if I wanted to, all I'd have to do is take those courses and then apply for the undergrad degree.

According to Web MD, my stomach issues are menstrual cramps. It feels like morning sickness almost.

Quote from: Edge on February 05, 2014, 11:00:38 PM

Quote from: Gwynne on February 05, 2014, 10:49:42 PM
a) I didn't think you looked like a girl in the photo you posted in Show Yourself.

Thanks, but I barely ever pass in real life. Even when I've introduced myself as Victor, I still get called "she" repeatedly.

yeah you looked male to me too. How long have you been on T? Sometimes it just takes awhile.

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