I would have to say..

1. Not being accepted by friends of family. I've come out to most people in my life already, but i have long term fears tied to acceptance.

2. Losing my job when I come out at work. (Come on ENDA!!!)

3. The last one is kind of silly, but I'm deathly afraid of spiders. As in, pack up an move if i could.

Here's a few possibles to choose from...

1)   Being clocked I do not think I will pass
2)   Having to stop HRT (for whatever reason) I do not think this will happen.
3)   Not being able to afford HRT Insurance will cover everything less FFS
4)   Not being able to afford surgery I will need surgery for FFS which I think I can swing over time.
5)   Wanting surgery but fearing things could go wrong (major complications). Not a concern.
6)   Not finding acceptance from family members etc I think the further I go the more distant my wife will be. I believe she will influence my daughter. I will lose my siblings.


I fear people will say the things others said and that I said to myself about myself (in the past). I would call myself freak, IT, ->-bleeped-<- and homo. I was my worst enemy. It was like two persons at war in my head. She won.

I do not want to be alone and isolated.

I do not want to lose my job.

I dream about being trapped and not being able to get away and not being able to stop someone.

I dread someone asking a question. I have fought so much for my gains I do not want to deny "my self".

Spring will bring warm weather and I will not have a hoodie or sweater to hide my breasts. Beach weather is approaching :0 There was a co-worker female staring at my breasts last week for 20-30 seconds during a conversation, how rude.

Quote from: peky on January 22, 2014, 12:53:07 PM
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Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on February 02, 2014, 06:23:07 PM


I dream about being trapped and not being able to get away and not being able to stop someone

Your post reminded me of another fear that was almost forgotten and that fear is the fear of being trapped and unable to escape. I think I have a bit is clostrophobia.  Primarily tracing back to when I was a child (my sister was watching me while my mom was gone.) And I got hold of one of here dolls and well her response was to lock me in the closet till mom got home. I was quite the mess by the time my mother got home.

Oh, I thought of a few more weird ones to add:

1. Chucky from Child's Play
2. Big, rabid dogs
3. Aliens and UFO's
4. Supernatural crap: angry spirits, ghosts, etc

Being stuck like this for another few years is my greatest fear.

Mine is being caught in some kind of disaster or conflagration or conflict, being forced to flee en masse with everyone else and at the relief/refuge camps being lumped in with the men. Sounds a bit stupid I know but it's certainly happened to people around the world throughout history.

I have many fears but only one would force me back into a state of darkness, despair, intense dysphoria, loss of connection and no emotional depth... being denied hrt.  If I have hrt then all things remain possible - my next greatest fears - the loss of family and friends may still happen but I will give it a shot and hope that they suspend their judgement but not their love.

Hi Aisla,

Quote from: Aisla on February 08, 2014, 07:09:44 AM
..........  my next greatest fears - the loss of family and friends may still happen but I will give it a shot and hope that they suspend their judgement but not their love.

And this is one of the fears we have absolutely no control over. And now is the time to work out your strategy in the way you'll handle that situation, should it ever arise. It just makes overcoming setbacks and personal hurts just a bit quicker if we have a exit strategy.

My greatest fear is that I'll be blinded by love and pick the wrong guy to marry. It's so easy. We tend to turn off our radar when we fall in love.

Huggs
Catherine

In hindsight, nothing.

I have been to hell.

No one can put me back; not anymore.

I just fear sleep.

          

Thanks but I'm good, at least till I close my eyes

We are never totally helpless in situations like this. Take control of the conscious before you sleep with affirming statements that you won't go there. 

Oh Sis, you know they wait for me! I'm fine may S you in a few mins if you like

That the dysphoria will never get easier and that I will never look male enough.

Hi Edge,

Quote from: Edge on February 08, 2014, 09:42:44 AM
That the dysphoria will never get easier and that I will never look male enough.

Half the trick to confronting fear is to try and find where it originated from. Generally negative thoughts, which fear is, comes from negative sources. People, places, events etc. defining the source will discover the absolute truth, from which you can work from.

The other half of the trick is to ignore what you say about yourself and listen to the positive of what others say about you. This may require you to "borrow" their belief in you until such time as you take ownership of it yourself.

Huggs
Catherine

I'm afraid to be perceived as a "threat" to society when I transition.  I'm scared that I'm going to be followed around in stores like a criminal, or that a police officer or citizen may see me as a danger and decides to kill me or a police put me under arrest/harass me for just lookig "suspicious" or being somewhere where I shouldn't "belong".

Lately I'm afraid of going public. In Miami today and was talking with some of the other players and wondering if I will still be accepted once they all know

Quote from: Malachite on February 08, 2014, 10:57:47 AM
I'm afraid to be perceived as a "threat" to society when I transition.  I'm scared that I'm going to be followed around in stores like a criminal, or that a police officer or citizen may see me as a danger and decides to kill me or a police put me under arrest/harass me for just lookig "suspicious" or being somewhere where I shouldn't "belong".

This. I'm half black and I'm afraid the combination "not pure white" plus male is going to end badly for me at some point, even though I'm not at all a violent person. Police have been known to harass people for way less. It follows then, I'm also afraid of getting arrested and what they'll do when they discover mismatching...bits. Or where they would put a transsexual. Birth gender? Huge dysphoria. All men? Yeeeeaaah not with the bottom bits.

Quote from: Frank on February 08, 2014, 01:29:21 PM
This. I'm half black and I'm afraid the combination "not pure white" plus male is going to end badly for me at some point, even though I'm not at all a violent person. Police have been known to harass people for way less. It follows then, I'm also afraid of getting arrested and what they'll do when they discover mismatching...bits. Or where they would put a transsexual. Birth gender? Huge dysphoria. All men? Yeeeeaaah not with the bottom bits.

Exactly how I feel, or someone catches the harrassment on the phone and it's all over the internet to see/or it becomes huge and international, and then there's a whole new spin on the story as it gets out that the guy being harrassed is trans.... Gosh that would be a nightmare for me.