Oh my, I see the endo in a week about starting T.

I'm hella scared but really excited too. can't really describe it.

I know I don't have much to lose, family is all fine with me and i got health insurance and i got the money, i just feel a little scared though. I want to be a man don't get me wrong, I find no redeeming factor to being  a woman, and especially being the in between I'm at now physically. I want to be a man and i know i got no other way of getting the changes i want and it's exciting to know i have an answer but im still so so scared.

I've always been very cautious as a person, always second guessing myself.  just the way i am.

but don't get me wrong i am still stoked im finally at this point even if im nervous i want to get on this sh*t

*edit*
i mean man physically, I'm mentally all man. just to clarify what im talkin about.

That's awesome, mate.  Congratulations!

Good that you can take this step to get on T.  Keep us informed on how everything goes for you.

Congrats and good luck!

thanks everybody XD It's been a hell of a ride, and I can't wait to get going on the next step.