So I finally went to my GP today and told him that I'm trans and that I'm interested in hormone therapy. He's the first person other than my husband and a couple of friends that I've told.
He said he's never treated a trans person before so he's going to have to do some research and get back to me once he knows what my country's guidelines are and where to refer me to. Other than that he just asked me a few questions about my background etc.
I felt like it was going to be a big step but really it was pretty anticlimactic. I guess that this is just the first of many small steps I'll have to take towards medically transitioning. It feels good though that I've at least taken the first one and that I'm at least started down the path now.
On passing for a day - I'm pretty sure that I usually don't pass very well though, of course, it can be hard to tell. I've definitely had times that I passed at least at a distance or through an introduction to someone but it seems like something always gives me away. Last Sunday however was the Auckland 'Big Gay Out' which is a one day outdoor musical festival which happens here during pride. I felt like I passed all day, I didn't get mamd or shed at all, a guy I'm pretty sure was gay hit on me, people called me by my male name without questioning it. It was obviously an accepting and trans friendly crowd and that could have been the reason, but I was kind of worried going into it that I would just come off as a butch lesbian rather than as a guy.
It felt really good to know that even if I'm not there yet that I'm not a lost cause.
