So today I told my mother about how bad I feel. I already told her I would like to be a girl but it made her sad and she doesnt want it to happen so I didnt speak about it today. I just said her that I need a therapist because she said that if I feel bad I should tell her and we would try to find one. So it is what I did.
She said me that we would try to find one in two weeks (when I'll be on holidays).
I'm quite excited of seeing a therapist soon because I'll can begin transitioning maybe but I'm also a bit angry with myself because my mother thinks all mh bad feelings are her bad but even when I tell her that it isnt she doesnt believe me and she's sad...
So... Let's see what will happen next...