Cnt really describe it

Been on T for 2 days and i am extatic i am on my way to appearing the way i feel

And there's no way in hell im gonna live out as a girl

But ive just been so nervous since yesterday, like i was just being paranoid for no reason and i dont know.
Just strange feelings about it all.

I know im a man, ive gotten to this point why am i so scared?

I think we all get a bit nervous when we start our journey. It does take a little while to settle down and start enjoying being yourself.

Congratulations on getting onto man juice!

Cindy

Congrats on getting started on T. Change makes most people nervous even if its change you want.  Things will settle down a bit as far as the nervousness goes. The excited feeling though is likely to last a long time every time you notice any milestones.

It is the "T" flowing. You are describing exactly how I felt every day until I started transition. I was constantly over alert, needed to move all the time and hyper. It wore me out by the end of the day. Then when I tried to sleep it would not let me if I was worrying about something. Small noises would instantly wake me ready for action and I felt the urge to protect everyone all the time. I just felt like I had a high pitched vibration inside all the time unless we worked a really big structure fire or something on shift. Physical exertion was really the only way to keep it in check. That's why guys hit the gym all the time or played sports. It does cause a kind of paranoia because you always every day have to earn male privilege and be dominant in everything you do.

Congratulations on the milestone. I agree with everybody that some nervousness is normal, whether it comes from the major change or from the direct influence of testosterone.

When I get edgy, for any reason, I do what Jessica said and exercise. I used to shoot hoops or rollerskate and now I do situps and lift weights. Exertion is a wonderful panacea.

I had kinda the same feeling when started T. Exercise is good and try to always do something so you don't have too much time worrying over everything and nothing. Also congrats on fuctioning on the right hormones!

Thanks guys, helps to know it aint just me.


I feel more settled down now. Went to the gym AND DAMN I COULD RUN FOREVER AND IT FELT GREAT but now im really sore cuz i dont do that all the time.

I think the first couple days were rough just because i didnt know what was happening internally. Looked it up a bit and apparently your on a T high at first and then it tapers, so the edge is kind of less.

But im definitely going to keep goin, im not discouraged.