Generally the thought process is he and she, which is myself.
An example would be a decision process, they both have their views or ideas, I think them at the same time.
Usually one of those thoughts will win out. Most of the time, they are very agreeable and think along the same lines.
Sometimes there's an internal battle, but usually doesn't last very long.
Those can take from a split second to however long it takes to resolve the conflicting thoughts.
It's just thinking from two different viewpoints. What they see, can be the same thing.
And in general, that is how decisions work.
There can be two different feelings about the same thing.
This is different than thinking. It's enjoyable to be able to feel two distinct feelings for the same thing.
This is where one side can be more dominant than the other.
But that's not much different than being pissed off or happy.
Not that one side is more of that than the other. Either side can feel the full range of things, emotion.
How that enters into decisions, depends on what the decision needs to be.
I can identify them as pretty much feminine and masculine, but not the classic stereotype.
I don't see this as much different than how people can have a good side and bad side, and have those thoughts simultaneously.
One side generally wins out. People live with these thought processes all their lives. They are always there.
To me, how strange and dimensionless it must be to not be able to recognize the other side of your gender, to deny the thoughts.
I think cis people hang on to this way of thinking, deny what they fear, which is the hate that comes from that very fear.
Even transsexuals who are adamant about their gender recognize there is another side. But at times they are forced into that cis thinking.
If they want to be accepted, they have to play that game along with the cis people in their lives.
But for those of us who recognize this as not a duality, but a way of thinking or understanding, that there can be two distinct views,
we embrace this as being non-binary in the ways we are comfortable with.
There is a very blurred line between being binary and non-binary. Some of us move through that blurred place.
But for those that don't, those who recognize that they are thinking in two different genders, non-binary is normal.
My gender just happens to have two sides to it. It doesn't matter that much which side is doing what, because ultimately, it is just me, myself.
The thought processes are different from what I understand, which is hard to understand how only one gender thinks.
So what each part my two sided gender plays in my thinking really doesn't matter. I still figure things out and move on.
I could say one is like this and the other is like that, but it all comes down to, that's just self, me.
What the situation calls for, they have their opinions, it blends immediately and that's the reaction to the situation.
But like I said, sometimes there's a conflict. But I don't think it is all that much different than deciding whether to be bad or good.
And we make those kinds of decisions all day long, day after day. My gender has more than one way of deciding things.
I used to try and decide which side was what, but they can switch hit. They might have the reverse of what I would have labeled them as.
So I don't. I quit bothering with trying to define just what those two sides are.
I'm much happier doing that. I'm more comfortable with myself.
It took a long time to eventually come to this conclusion, and it resulted in a lot of events in my life that are both good and bad.
If I wanted to describe them as two voices in my head (they most certainly are not), it isn't that difficult to follow the conversation.
I guess some people have only one gender, I can't really conceive of how a person would think, it seems dimensionless, like I said.
But I suppose they would think that having two sides to my gender and that's how I think, would be confusing.
It's not. I'm just more opinionated to myself. When I talk to people, that's what they hear... me, self.
A conclusion to the question asked, a decision on how to deal with a situation.
I just have two sides to my gender.
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