Hi, I've decided, now is probably the time for me to come out of the closet to my parents. However, my parents are going through a rough time worrying they may have to move out of their house due to financial reasons. Should I wait until this dies down as it could be several months. Also, here is my letter I plan on writing via email. Also, should I wait until I have a gender therapist in mind or should I find one after. Here is my rough draft of my coming out email to my mum
So, you have noticed how I have had an extreme lack of motivation as well as been very depressed recently. What you don't know is I looked up ways to painlessly kill myself twice now. Though I know I will never do something so drastic, I have been insanely depressed. After much thought and careful consideration, I feel these symptoms may be from gender dysphoria. I know a long time ago I told you I was "turned on" by the idea of being turned into a girl. Well those feelings have not changed over the years. In fact they have only grown stronger. I am not sure what I am entirely, whether that be transgender or transsexual, but I do know, there is something not normal about me going on. I was hoping to speak with a gender therapist so I could figure out what is going on with me and perhaps make sure there is no alternative explanation. I know you will want to call and immediately discuss this and you are probably mad or even sick to your stomach. I would like you to wait to call me until the end of the weekend if not the end of next week as I need to focus on my studies and I would really like you to carefully think over and read the provided documentation. I need help. I'm tired and I don't know what to do anymore. I love you very much and that won't change no matter how you take this. I need help and I don't want to do this alone. I am open to emailing you but, I am not ready to talk over the phone or in person yet. Please understand I have been thinking about this since before I was five and have tried multiple times to pray it away. The problem is, it will not go away, no matter how hard I try.
