Seriously, please don't let your age get you down. I'm horrible at guessing ages, but you don't look old AT ALL. And you are certainly not an ugly woman, actually I think you're pretty. I think a lot of us have such poor self esteem and have faced years of battling dysphoria that sometimes it's challenging to see our own beauty. If you can't see it yourself, I can definitely understand that, but know that you ARE NOT ugly in the eyes of other people.