Hello! I am a 21 year old Swedish person who is also a trans* probably. Who knows really, right?

I am pre-everything, I've never even worn garments traditionally associated with the opposite gender, or spoken to anyone about it. But since these forums are anonymous, I guess this is good practice.

So here's my story, short and sweet.

I started feeling this way when I was about 7 or 8 years old. Me and my friends would play in fantasy worlds akin to Dungeons & Dragons, and they would sometimes insist I play a female character. Somehow this just struck a chord with me.

When I was 12 or 13 (2005) I received internet access, and sadly found an outlet for my feelings in assuming a female persona on the internet. Then I never really thought about what I was doing, and never even considered the possibility of what I was. When I was privately "outed" by a transperson over live messenger (2010), who apparently recognized what I was doing (having done the same themselves in the past) and confronted with the question "Are you trans?" I was confused because I'd never seen myself in that way, and would still not.

The realization would not come until I was 19 or 20 (2012), at which point I started beating myself up for not realizing sooner. Now, as I said, I am yet to speak to anyone about it, but I plan to speak to my new doctor/therapist about it as soon as I build the confidence.

So, um, hi!

Just fun stuff I feel like posting (about my appearance):
* I am 187 centimeters tall (6'1"~)
* I weigh 64 kilograms (140lbs~)
* I have blonde hair and blue eyes
* I am a tall, slender person.
* I have thick hair, and am the envy of my thin-haired family because of this.

Hello and don't beat yourself up. I hid from myself for 45 years, but can't beat myself up for it, as I was beating myself up for all those years I hid. So really, you are stopping beating yourself up by being honest with yourself and looking for the right path and fit for you. I applaud your courage, and welcome you aboard a really neat place to learn and interact with folks who understand. Everyone of us is a little different, and from member a to z, all those differences become gaping but everyone gets it and accepts what you are dealing with. The greatest thing though is somewhere from a to z you will find folks who relate almost identically as you and it is nice to meet those people. You don't run into them too often at your local grocery store, hehe.

A big warm welcome to the family Aquila! This is a very safe place to discover yourself and find like minded people who understand you well. The information you get here is invaluable because it comes from REAL people at all stages of transition from questioning to Post Op. You will learn what works or doesn't with many tips and suggestions along the way. Feel free to rant, vent, share good news (we like that a LOT), learn or just have some fun and meet the rest of the family. After 15 postings you can use the Personal Message function to contact any of us directly for more private talks. Here is a BIG HUG  to welcome you and make you feel right at home, because you are!

Thank you for the warm and reassuring welcome. You have convinced me this is the place I wish to be, after all.

Hopefully I can aid and possibly entertain others in turn!

Aquila the Eagle, if I recall my constellations correctly.

A warm welcome to you.  We have several Swedes as members here.  You will feel right at home.


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