I have been thinking the past few days how normal and natural my life is.
6 years ago, every day seemed a challenge, new things to be learned, new situations to handle, new confrontations on a daily basis, with people who didn't know how to handle me or respond to me.
My mind, whole life was dominated by just surviving on a day to day basis and feeling good at times when I got home and could lock the door and retreat from the World.
Thoughts where centred around SRS, BA and what life would be like after I reached that point and how I was going to survive after that, I didnt really give any thought to. Would I keep my job, ever work again was a constant fear in my mind.
Well life is nothing like what I feared it would be, Its just normal.
I get up, get ready, go to work, interact with people, have a mind free and that is now being used for the greater good rather than cluttered with thoughts, feelings of the past. I interact naturally with people, smile, flirt and achieve what I want by just being me rather than putting on an act. I get home, cook with my housemate, go to the gym, training or just chill out on the sofa, with a glass of wine, having a laugh of chatting.
I have Male friends that I enjoy seeing and like going out with sociably, who treat me as nothing less than a princess at times and I like that.
I cant describe how happy I am that at times life is boring, mundane and natural........
Buffy