I cannot stand it when people stand too close to me... This morning I got a solo seat on the train and thought I'd be fine... But no, there is some creep who is standing over me and making me REALLY uncomfortable and feel like getting violent....

I am not a violent person by nature, I haven't actually thrown a punch in about 20 years, but this person is making me feel like it....

I can forgive it when the train is really packed and it's necessary, but this weirdo has chosen to hover around ME for no good reason and I do NOT like it!

I hope you are reading this ... Get out of my personal space or I will be forced to take 20 years of frustration out on yr stupid face!

I wanted the solo seat this morning cause I was having a rough morning, mood wise... Dysphoria + diurnal depression are not a fantastic combination... Thankfully I'm not teary anymore... I'm just CRANKY!!!!

Understandable sweetie! 

PM if you ever need to, OK? I have the days like you are having to and having someone to talk to helps me a lot.

*phew*

That idiot has moved and now I'm in post anxious haze.... Brain no worky so good... Just nice feelings now...

To be clear, I have social anxiety, which makes coping with these sort of things extremely difficult...

Thankfully, my anxiety has gradually improved since I started to face my ->-bleeped-<- and confess it to other people...

Perhaps it's because I'm starting to fear being "found out" less than I did? Not sure, but I think it's a big part of the reason I developed that particular problem in the first place...

And btw... I didn't instantly flip out when the guy stood there... No... It took half an hr of gradually building anxiety until I guess I just had to scream here! lol

Well, even if no one reads this or responds to this, I feel a lot better... lol

And if you do happen to be reading this, I hope yr having a wonderful day and that maybe you got a giggle at my amateur dramatics here... lol

*HUGZ*

Edit - No worries, Jessica. Thank you very much for the invite!

As noted... OMG now what... Some else is doing it? Do I have a sign on my head that says please stand over me creepily? lol

Double edit - All's well that ends well... Off the train, calming down and preparing for another day at work. Auditioning for a semi-promotion today! W00T!

Good luck on the promo audition! PS-Take the sign off your head before you go in, OK?*giggle*

Did you say anything to him?

I think I may have replaced the sign with something along the lines of "No really, I don't have anything better to do, I will gleefully do all of yr work as well as my own and everyone else's!"

Audition seems to be going well though.

No, I didn't say anything... I wasn't sure what to say that could be appropriate given the setting (I'm not really one for making a scene... Unless I'm drunk... lol) and the fact that the only words I could think to say were probably best expressed with large gestures, various symbols + vehement punctuation...

I'm not a morning person at the best of times. I probably could've been more assertive, but overall, I'm just thankful I got through it without crying, swearing or lunging across the carriage! lol

Sounds like being trapped in an elevator, that's tough for anyone.

Let him have it with your tongue next time, tell him or others to give you room. Stomp his foot with your heel maybe.

Good luck GF

I feel your pain, this is from DC's Metro:

Ack, Hikari, that looks horrible! Thankfully, I don't have to go right into the heart of Sydney where it becomes as bad as that. I'm more coming in to the broader city area from the hillbilly fringe... But hopefully I can find a nice studio appt for myself soon.

Myself and the cat. The cat I don't have yet. lol

Believe me, Francis Ann, I DID want to let him have it... But I get worried that my reaction will be over the top if I open my mouth and let fly... Things tend to get out of hand when I make decisions in a high anxiety situation. I've learned that the hard way... :/

I should totally have given him a nice, little toe stomp, though!

Last year I moved far enough away from the train to where I had to buy a car again. What is sad, is that my Toyota Prius is cheap enough on gas to where I spend less on each trip than I did on the Metro....Not that I enjoy having the car payment or insurance payment now, but almost nothing is worse than being squished against the wall by some smelly guy during rush hour and missing your stop because no one will let you get thru to the door (I am looking at you people who are riding at rush hour at the Foggy Bottom station!).

Good luck on the Studio, I was looking for one myself, but my friends gave me a deal on a room down the subrubs that less than half what I would have paid in rent, and no need to pay for a parking spot!

Oh, how's this... I'm on the way home and some moronic teenage girls from a private school (rich kids, FYI) hop on the train. Three of them file into a seat behind me and I can feel them needling the back of it, like spoiled children trying to annoy their parents.

I'm thinking... "REALLY? WHAT?"

Then I notice their stooge friends standing around...

My thoughts continue - "Oh, you want to sit in one big pack and hang out and you thought the best way to achieve that was to irritate me into moving?"

They thought I couldn't hear them over my headphones...

"Is it working?"

For real.

Now, I'm actually quite a patient person and few things give me more pleasure than giving out life lessons to those sorely in need of it. Particularly would-be bullies.

So... I wait it out, knowing they're getting off about ten minutes later, knowing they're getting more and more irritated...

They get off the train where I predicted and being obviously thick as two short planks, probably haven't learned a thing, but hey, felt nice to be the fly in their ointment.

If they'd just asked, I would gladly have given them the seat... Evidently no-one taught them that you catch more flies w/ honey... lol

I've thought about getting a car because I am so weary of dealing with delightful specimens of humanity, such as those I've had to weather today... But it just costs too much buy, run + maintain a car...

I have MUCH more important plans for my savings! And besides, when I'm moved I probably won't have much of a use for a car.

And being squished by smelly guys on trains... Ack... I have a really disgusting story about that... But I'll spare myself the horror of remembering it and everyone else the trauma of reading about it!

You are having a tough day GF, maybe some kind of break from the rountine is in order? Good luck.

Yeah, I've got some vacation time saved up, gonna take a week off soon for my sanity! lol

Thanks.

It sounds like your commute is a bitch. Maybe move closer to your job if a premo job??? Jamed into a train crowded with people would stress out anyone.

Good luck GF

The job is okay, but I plan to move to the city soon anyway. More/better work opportunities (practically no work where I live), more liberal community (They don't take too kindly to my type 'round here, if you catch my drift) and living with my father drives me completely insane and prevents me from living life the way I like to... So it's kind of a no brainer! lol

Haunting realty websites and just waiting for something good to come up.