I've always lived in fear (and I still do) of asking my parents to buy me male clothing, they never do. They know I'm FtM but can't accept it, and when I tell them about how I feel and so on, I just get rejected by them. It's kind of sad. All I do, is look at men clothing on the internet, watch videos about successful FtMs, look at half-naked men wishing to be like them and then search for FtM gear knowing I can't buy it. I always end up curling on my bed, crying until I fall asleep.

But today my dysphoria got very bad and I couldn't take it anymore. I stole boxers from my dad's closet, tried on various men clothing my brother gave me (because they don't fit him anymore) and I made a packer out of three socks.
It felt so good and natural, I had to put on my pajama afterwards but I kept the boxers and I'm still wearing the packer. It feels so natural! I can't wait for my binder to arrive!

I'm just worried now how I should explain to my mother why I'm wearing boxers, but I don't care about it right now. I just feel great.

I thought it would be nice to share it with you guys! 

You go Brother! Cant keep a trans guy down, can they?

Yeah! I slept with the packer on and it still feels natural. I can't get over it! It might just be because I've never tried a real packer, but it really helps my dysphoria just a little bit.

Whatever helps your dysphoria is a good thing can you not buy them yourself, online?

Sadly I can't, even the least expensive Mr Limpy is too much for me! I don't work and my parents won't give me money unless I tell them what I'm buying! I got away with the binder because I told them it was a T-shirt, but what should I tell them about a packer? 

Congrats Bro.

Go for it.

Why is your mother looking down your pants? But no really there's no need to explain, you already said you are FTM to them. A simple "because they are more comfortable" is enough. If they don't like that then they want you to be miserable?

She doesn't support me, that's why. Everytime I tell her something about it she tells me that I'm crazy and all that stuff, and I don't really want to hear that again...

sometimes it takes time...I told my mom end of January/beginning of feb and she is still trying to accept it but she is cool with me dressing like a guy and wearing boxer briefs and the binders just look like tank tops if you get that style, just tell her its a tank top that's what I did at first before explaining what a binder is, I never used a packer yet, guess I don't feel a need too, i know people aren't really looking at my junk lol But yeah get a binder in tank top style, they sell them on amazon and I slowly started wearing more guy clothes, I bought guy clothes and slowly started getting rid of the girl ones and then it was like nothing new. Also seeing a therapist might help, my therapist talked to my mom and tried to get her to understand, also videos or articles online I had my mom watch to try and understand better

Quote from: Ryan55 on March 19, 2014, 08:18:06 AM
sometimes it takes time...I told my mom end of January/beginning of feb and she is still trying to accept it but she is cool with me dressing like a guy and wearing boxer briefs and the binders just look like tank tops if you get that style, just tell her its a tank top that's what I did at first before explaining what a binder is, I never used a packer yet, guess I don't feel a need too, i know people aren't really looking at my junk lol But yeah get a binder in tank top style, they sell them on amazon and I slowly started wearing more guy clothes, I bought guy clothes and slowly started getting rid of the girl ones and then it was like nothing new. Also seeing a therapist might help, my therapist talked to my mom and tried to get her to understand, also videos or articles online I had my mom watch to try and understand better

I told my parents three years ago, so quite some time has passed.     She always let me wear what I want, but ever since I told her she tries to 'feminize' me a bit, even though she herself knows that it doesn't work and will never work! I didn't get a tank top style binder, but when it'll arrive I'll just explain her what it is. I can't really see a therapist here because hooray, transphobic and homophobic place! Thankfully (and hopefully) we will move soon to another country (way more open minded than Italy) so there's hope! She told me she would let me see a therapist when we go there.  My mother doesn't really want to know or talk about it, and it's awkward for me to actually explain things to her, so I guess I'll just let it go for now.