Hello everyone! I am new here and I wanted to make a brief introduction.
My name is Evan, I am 26 years old, I live in the midwest, and I have been 'out' to my family for only about 4 months. My parents (for now) have decided to remove themselves from my life due to me being trans. This has really turned my life upside down but I am trying to remain positive. I am preT but hoping to start hormones within a few months using the informed consent model. Unlike some of my trans brothers that I know and love, (and sisters!) I did not always know I was transgender. In fact I did not know what transgender was when I was growing up. I knew that I WANTED to be a boy, and I was always jealous of the boys - the way their bodies looked, the way they interacted with others, their clothes, their hair, just everything about males was what I wanted to see in myself when I looked in the mirror. I wore boys clothes and played with boys toys almost exclusively. I cried when my parents tried to give me a doll at 3 years old. When I was in school, I was a tomboy, but then I started to get bullied. Kids began calling me gay slurs because of my boy clothes. This got to the point where I decided I wanted to blend in and so I tried to be more feminine. I grew my hair very long and wore female clothes, but I always felt uncomfortable. I knew I did not want the female parts of my body recognized, but I didn't "hate" them, I just didn't want them. I felt like, well, this is the body I am stuck in and there is nothing I can do about it so I will just ignore it. I felt like I wasn't a girl, but I wasn't born a boy, so I started to feel I had no gender. I didn't realize at the time that transgender existed. When I found out what transgender was things clicked and I obsessively began to research about it. suddenly this world of hope opened. I realized I could make my outside reflect my inside.
I have a wonderful, supportive girlfriend of 2 years. I also have a doggy (roscoe) and cat (corey) who are very spoiled.
I enjoy reading about mindfulness, spirituality, gender identity, and military history. I spent most of my free time online and with various social media sites.
I am very excited to be joining this community here! I found the forums when looking up various FTM topics, and decided it was time I stop browsing as a guest and start posting as a member
I look forward to getting to know all of you!
