Hi, I'm SonsOfSamedi. Yeah, I took my name and location from Saints Row 2, but I really live somewhere in England. What brought me here were various google searches on ->-bleeped-<- and I think it might be a decent place to check out every now and again.
I've always been biologically male and felt it. As a teenager, I adored women so much that I sometimes imagined being one. I used to fantasise about cross-dressing but the urges were never strong and I wouldn't have been brave enough to follow through on them anyway. Recently, that changed and now and cross-dressing is something I really want to do. I've now sourced padded pants, breast forms, waist cinches, advice and whatnot. I know how to tuck, I cross my legs now and again and I've been practising the feminine walk.
Despite a recent gender-identity crisis (which only left me confused rather than distressed), I'm comfortable with doing guy things either as a "manly" man or a passable female. I'm still sort of figuring out my exact gender and might well be some sort of third sex (as with Richard O'Brien). I guess I'm "transgender" but I lean strongly towards the male side of the spectrum. Whatever I conclude, I'll never undergo anything permanent like HRT or SRS, I like my body as it is.
I live religiously by the following rule: consider the source and situation. This is important when it comes to criticism and ribbing. I enjoy insult-based humour with close friends and workmates because I have the confidence to laugh at myself, however, the other party has to be able to take it back too. I still try to respect personal boundaries and avoid being brash/insensitive. Criticism is vital for self-improvement and the person offering it could well be doing so because they think it needs to be brought to your attention. Maybe the person is being mean-spirited. Whatever the intention, it's best not to be a ->-bleeped-<-head.
I also love "follow your heart, but remember that your brain's say is more important."
My main goal is to be a better person and the best thing about it is that I'll never fulfil that completely. I strive to be a person people want to be around. Currently, the only thing I adore (besides immediate family) is an online community and the people who frequent it. I love hanging around there and it's one of the reasons I'm still alive and functioning (relatively) healthily.
So, that's it.
