Yea.... it's my 1 year birthday since starting HRT. It seems such a long time ago. The memories of my male ego are now a fuzzy memory, but I have not fully let go mentally of the male side. I feel like I'm between two worlds and I guess I will shed the old me when I can come out of the closet.
Wow, the physical changes, I am already only 5ft 7ins and very fined boned, small feet (39 women shoes) and keeping at 138 pounds and combine this with a fuller face passing physically will be no problem. Still in the closet, I have to wear lycra t shirts to hide my breast. My fat distribution has started to become visible - change in hip line and a larger butt. My shoulder and back muscles has greatly been reduced. Full head of hair with no male patter baldness which had just started before HRT. Electrolysis on my facial hair is 80% done. Funny that I am even more popular with the girls as a male than ever before –if only they knew !!! They can't imagine the transition I'm going thru as I used to be one of the major playboys in the city, always in magazine and press.
Mentally, I'm really happy. I've found the real me in my life. The euphoria of the first few months on E has settled into a comfortable new persona and perspective and I look forward to the evolving journey. This has been the most precious change and I'm so glad I took the first step a year ago.
What concerns me is that while I know passing physically is easy, it's the female behavior that I find daunting. Guess that's another adventure when I start RLE and I know you will all be here to help.
I have a lot of a apprehension for the surgery ahead with FFS 10 months away and SRS further down, but I'm ever so vain and I'm doing this for myself and not anyone else. In the coming months this will foremost in my mind.
Thank all of you, for the information on transition and the concerns in this Forum. I know the road would much bumpier without all of your support.
Hugs and kisses to all of you
