Depending on when I am talking to myself but teenage me. "For the love of God put the gun down, you will be lucky that it misfires. Put down the bottle it will cause you alot of heartache in a few years self medication is not the right choice. GET OUT OF THE CHURCH NOW!!! They are not helping you, get a therapist. Those feelings you have when your alone at night crying yourself to sleep will not go away but your not weak or alone. You will start to be happy oneday when you acknowledge your feelings, and when you do it will be wonderfull, you will feel free. Do not join the coast guard, the military is not ready for you.
People will love you, and love you for who you really are, not just your fake public side everyone knows.
PS that floral dress you stole from your sister is tacky as heck, you have much better taste.
I love you girl (get used to it you know its true)
