Quote from: Shantel on April 03, 2014, 10:56:35 AM
So if she says no to top surgery are you going to shoot her?    Ok juuuust kidding!

Part of the reason she won't let me buy one is because she really is afraid that I really would shoot her. 

Quote from: big head horsey-face on April 03, 2014, 11:06:32 AM
If she drinks like crazy, its probably a good thing not to have too many weapons in the house. You never know what could happen when someone drinks a lot.

I was going to invest in a biometric safe box to put it in so only I could have access to it.

So many things i want to do yet i need money for. And im broke.
This sux. -_-

Quote from: Malachite on April 03, 2014, 02:50:30 PM
Part of the reason she won't let me buy one is because she really is afraid that I really would shoot her. 



I was going to invest in a biometric safe box to put it in so only I could have access to it.

You should just continue to save your money for what's most important to you.

Quote from: Emo on April 03, 2014, 03:10:37 PM
So many things i want to do yet i need money for. And im broke.
This sux. -_-

Welcome to the club!  We would have meetings, but no one can afford the gas to go to them...

Quote from: big head horsey-face on April 03, 2014, 03:13:17 PM
You should just continue to save your money for what's most important to you.

Right now that would be top surgery, but it would be nice to own a gun.  I guess I'll just have to find another weapon to own.

Quote from: Emo on April 03, 2014, 03:10:37 PM
So many things i want to do yet i need money for. And im broke.
This sux. -_-

I know that feeling all too well. 

Haha, I can't picture you shooting your mom, Malachite. As much as she might annoy you sometimes. I can see it now though, that I think of it enough.... "My mom isn't going to work today...BECAUSE SHE'S DEAD.  " And then you proceed to throw out the junk food and sell everything in the house.

Quote from: birkin on April 03, 2014, 05:31:24 PM
Haha, I can't picture you shooting your mom, Malachite. As much as she might annoy you sometimes. I can see it now though, that I think of it enough.... "My mom isn't going to work today...BECAUSE SHE'S DEAD.  " And then you proceed to throw out the junk food and sell everything in the house.

LOL!  I would be selling her stuff like crazy, and perhaps get atleast around $500 for everything!    I do want to shoot my mom with silly string or a water gun though.

Hemorrhaging cash again.

Property taxes
Random bills
Doctor/surgeon bills
Prescriptions
Federal and state taxes
Car repair

Welp. It's pretty much all gone until July now. 

Can you say CASHTRATION?

Quote from: Jill F on April 03, 2014, 07:24:13 PM
Hemorrhaging cash again.
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Welp. It's pretty much all gone until July now. 

Can you say CASHTRATION?

I like that.

I binged again

Happy then sad... :x

I heard that one of my distant relatives had passed away. My father's father's father's sister's daughter(Age 76). I only met her once or so. Still a bit sad to lose a relative since there are very few living, she had no children.

Paranoia. Then again, it's not paranoia when it's right.

An old classmate tracked me down a couple of months ago, and we spent some time chatting on Facebook. I had to come out to her at the time because I've transitioned on FB... but as she's a South African of a certain generation, her awareness of LGBT issues is pretty much stuck in the 1980s.

So she's asked a lot of inappropriate questions about my transition, and as we were good friends growing up I decided to answer some of them, even if it felt uncomfortable to do so. But now she keeps pestering me on FB.

Every time I show up as being online on FB she tries to chat... and she keeps pushing to see current photos, presumably so she can get her Jerry Springer thrills. I'm not inclined to help her out with that.

So basically, I'm spooked off of Facebook because an old friend is making me feel uncomfortable with her intrusive, inappropriate questions and her constant badgering to see 'before & after' photos.

Apparently I'm allergic to gluten and milk... And this explains a lot of my ,previously treated as imaginary, stomachaches.

Long day, rain. Waiting for electro lady tomorrow & plastic surgeon visit Monday. I should would like to get rid of all this hair & complete my face/neck lift so I could finally live a normal life as an attractive  woman.

Quote from: FTMDiaries on April 04, 2014, 08:46:19 AM
An old classmate tracked me down a couple of months ago, and we spent some time chatting on Facebook. I had to come out to her at the time because I've transitioned on FB... but as she's a South African of a certain generation, her awareness of LGBT issues is pretty much stuck in the 1980s.

So she's asked a lot of inappropriate questions about my transition, and as we were good friends growing up I decided to answer some of them, even if it felt uncomfortable to do so. But now she keeps pestering me on FB.

Every time I show up as being online on FB she tries to chat... and she keeps pushing to see current photos, presumably so she can get her Jerry Springer thrills. I'm not inclined to help her out with that.

So basically, I'm spooked off of Facebook because an old friend is making me feel uncomfortable with her intrusive, inappropriate questions and her constant badgering to see 'before & after' photos.

Time to block? 

Quote from: Djynne on April 04, 2014, 10:20:43 PM
Time to block? 

I hope not. I'm psyching myself up to find a way to tell her that she's spooking me by asking to see pics, and I want to send her a list of things you shouldn't say to trans* people. But if that doesn't work, yes it will be time to block. In the meantime, I'm just awkwardly avoiding FB. 

I'm going to some yardsales with my father and he told me to get my permit....

I have a very strong feeling that this is going to be a bad day filled with him yelling at me and making me feel suicidal....  He had me write down the addresses of 3 main yardsales he wanted to attend, but I put down more just in case.  Now I just only want to attend those three....perhaps even less.

Gosh I hate driving....

I don't even want to go now.

Im having the worst dysphoria right now...

Quote from: Emo on April 05, 2014, 10:51:40 AM
Im having the worst dysphoria right now...

This too will pass....(((Hugs)))