Today I had one very different experience. It was...different from anything...different for me, because for anyone "normal" this must be the most ordinary thing ever...

I met a new friend (not a transsexual, but a crossdresser) on facebook and we decided to meet and go shopping "dressed". So...that was the perfect opportunity for me to go out as myself for the second time...and at daylight!!!

We decided to meet on a shopping center (I was very cautious, and I didn't think it could be risky...but I am not actually caring too much anymore...I just want to live).

I dressed on the car...nothing very good and no make-up. I was pretty sure I wasn't very passable, but my friend was even less passable :/

I went with her to a few stores, bought two extremely beautiful shoes (amazing ones!!!!) and saw some feminine clothing. The vendors were all very prestative and none were rude or anything at us (of course, they wanted to sell, right?)

At the car my friend helped me to comb my wig, that was a mess! She said very nice things to me, like "you are very pretty", "I loved your eyebrows" and such...she was caressing my head, very gently...and she gave me a hug and said that she loved meeting me. I gave her a hug too and then, when I was not expecting anything else, she wanted to kiss me! Not a "normal" kiss, but a lover kiss...with tongue and such.

Can anyone here believe that I was never kissed on my entire life?

I didn't know how to react...I decided to enjoy the situation...even if I wasn't exactly on the mood and even with my "old fashion romantic thoughs" that always told me that a kiss should only be received (or given) after some time of  courtship

...I reached 27 without even knowing what a lover kiss is! I decided to let it go.

I think my kiss wasn't very good, because I didn't know what to do lol and because I am a silly girl who never went out with anyone...my kiss was probably a disaster.

After it I felt my face getting red...it was my first kiss...not exactly what I have dreamed...but it was a kiss nonetheless...and it was with a crossdresser (I never imagined that my first kiss would be with a "man"!) And, besides my nervousness, I actually enjoyed it! I felt strange, all ashamed, like a little girl that received her first kiss...


I think I am starting to live now! I feel alive! I don't feel bad, nor ashamed...I feel strange and alive like I never was.

Transitioning is giving me so much...I didn't expect doing anything like this a few years back (or a few months!!), but since I started being myself...it's been wonderful.

Naww what a lovely story Natalia! I'm sure your kiss was fine ^_^ It's pretty normal to worry that you didn't kiss correctly but you have to let all that go and just enjoy it, hehe, I'm so happy for you <3 your first kiss as a woman :3

WOW! What a big and impressive step baby! You are really starting to blossom now. I am so proud of what you have accomplished in such a short time. Live, love and experience all you can doll!

I'm glad things are looking up for you Natalia. 

Thank you everyone for your words! Being yourself is quite an experience, isn't it? ^^

But I am a very silly girl. Do you know the naive, timid and shy type? The girl who blushes when she is embarassed and run away? That's me! I'm also very inexperient about a lot of things...I know nothing about the world and how it works...

I am sorry if this post reflects how inexperienced I am and may reveal some things about me that are, perhaps, not true.

It happens that my friend loved going out with me and she also said that she loved kissing me! I loved it too! I am happy to know that my kiss was not a total disaster (perhaps it was and she is just being nice)

But now we talked today again and she is inviting me for a date! Yes, a date! She wants to go out for dinner with me, we both as girls...and then she said that she would love to kiss me again and she invited me to go to her place after dinner...

I am quite happy to know that someone likes me...never, in all my life, I had someone that liked me, or that said nice things to me, like "you are pretty" and such...I never kissed anyone (she was the first), I never went out for a date, I never anything!

I thanked her for being such a nice friend to me...and she told me that she wants to be more than a friend...

I'm afraid she is just after some easy sex...and I also don't know what to expect. Is this normal nowadays? You meet someone, kiss and go to bed?

I never had sex in all my life...in part because my "old fashioned mentality" that says that sex is something special...and I see sex as something that only real lovers should do...I don't approve sex as something banal...but I think I am wrong...this is how things were a century ago...

I admit...I am quite curious about it and a big part of me wants to go on and try new things, experience the world...but I am also afraid of it, I am afraid of the new...Yes, I feel attracted to men and and my friend, as a crossdresser, can be an interesting experience (I hope I am not sounding like a pervert, I am not...nor an easy girl that is after easy sex)

I am not afraid of happening something to me...I am sure she will not kidnap me or torture me and lock me on her basement (I hope?)...

What sgould I do? Should I accept it? (I already kind of said yes, I'd love to)...but it will be on the next friday or saturday...so I can think meanwhile.

I appreciate any sugestions and I thank you all for helping a silly stupid girl who is too naive to know if she is doing the right thing or not.

Maybe he's a regular on this forum? ... 

All I can say is that you know where this is going very rapidly and make sure your protected against STD's.

Quote from: Evelyn K on April 06, 2014, 08:30:35 PM
Maybe he's a regular on this forum? ... 

I hope not lol

Quote from: stephaniec on April 06, 2014, 08:38:13 PM
All I can say is that you know where this is going very rapidly and make sure your protected against STD's.

Yes...I know where this is going to end...I'm just so nervous and anxious...I want it and I don't want it at the same time. Odd, isn't it?

Glad you had a good time Natalia

Actually something similar happened to me a few weeks ago , I kissed with a guy for the first time in my life he said he likes me etc etc
I really enjoyed it and I was so happy somebody liked me,,,but after a week or so I thought to myself , hey do I really like this guy or do I like the fact that he likes me?
I broke up with him exactly because I had no real feelings for him , I just liked the fact that I was on a relationship , being able to kiss etc

All im saying is it will be better if you have feelings about the person you re dating and not feeling stress about it...
Im 19 I havent had sex yet and im planning to do it with the person I really really love , no matter when and if I find that person.

Quote from: FalsePrincess on April 06, 2014, 08:55:37 PM
Glad you had a good time Natalia

Actually something similar happened to me a few weeks ago , I kissed with a guy for the first time in my life he said he likes me etc etc
I really enjoyed it and I was so happy somebody liked me,,,but after a week or so I thought to myself , hey do I really like this guy or do I like the fact that he likes me?
I broke up with him exactly because I had no real feelings for him , I just liked the fact that I was on a relationship , being able to kiss etc

All im saying is it will be better if you have feelings about the person you re dating and not feeling stress about it...
Im 19 I havent had sex yet and im planning to do it with the person I really really love , no matter when and if I find that person.

helpful adice

You may enjoy being tied up in a basement some day...

I've never had any romantic encounters in girl mode, but I do find that girls are much more touchy. I was out with my girlfriend (not my SO, just a girlfriend like girls have girlfriends lol) and we were just holding hands and stuff and it's no big deal. Of course I never held hands with a boy in my life, but this is all so natural and friendly. It's nice. I need to learn better hugging etiquette as I'm not a very good hugger, but girls hug. A lot.

It's nice to hear you're pretty and that there are people that accept and care about you. I've met some beautiful trans girls and I'm so amazed when they will even speak to me, much less that they want to hang out or go shopping or invite me to a club. It's been really important for me to meet more people IRL and gain more experiences. It's like, life practice.

People kiss and get together in different ways. Just do what you are comfortable with. I've waited longer with some girls, and then I've met girls who wanted to make out at a bar in the first minute I met them. You'll be fine, but you will end up breaking some hearts and getting hurt. That's just how relationships are. Personally I do think it's a good idea to go out with different people and see who you are compatible with. What sort of personalities and hobbies and stuff. It's all different. Enjoy, have fun, be safe.

Casual sex is fine for people who can be casual about it, but that doesn't sound like you.

Are you prepared for feeling empty and used if she never wants to see you again and you're sitting waiting for the text, call. By putting out so soon, the chances are this will be more likely.

My own wife of forty-two years made me wait six months, times were different I know, but a large contributor to the relationship lasting so long was the wait. 

Hmmm I spent this whole week thinking about this subject...and I ended deciding to give it a try...I am too old to be unexperienced the way I am...I spent the last 26 years of my life as a total failure...but not anymore!

I had a wonderful afternoon...and it helped me even more to confirm that I am a woman in every aspect!

I loved to be kissed (I think my kiss improved a bit ^^)! I was still too shy...but a beer helped me to overcome it...

Then we agreed to go to somewhere more private...I know she was just after sex...but I was willing to experience it for the first time on my life...

Oh...I don't want to sound too explicit (sorry if I am), but we were like two lesbians. I was transported to heaven when my breasts were caressed and kissed...oh god!

And I told my friend about my bdsm fantasies and she tied my hands together ^^

But then my male bits weren't corresponding to her expectatives...She is a crossdresser...and I think she just wanted another crossdresser...and I am not a 100% functional male anymore since I am reaching my 7th month on hormones...nor I wanted to use my male bits...(I told her that I am a transsexual and I am on hormones but I didn't think I needed to explain anything else...)

She just stopped everything, left me tied on the bed, checked her cellphone and said she needed to go because her uncle got ill and was at the hospital (really??? I don't think I buy it)... 

So, we had just the "preliminary" part done... I really enjoyed it...but the problem is that I feel guilty someway...like if I was a disaster...I don't know...and I didn't like the way I was "discharged"...to me it seemed like that she wanted a man and when se realized I could not giver her that she decided to leave.

your dealing in the real world

I was smiling and happy for you until your last post.

Sorry, things did not work out.

Quote from: stephaniec on April 13, 2014, 07:10:16 PM
your dealing in the real world

I guess the real world is not a very nice place to be...but I am happy I took this step. I know sometimes I will get hurt, but at least I will be living my life. Getting hurt, learning, growing, experiencing, being alive.

Quote from: Cynthia Michelle on April 13, 2014, 07:29:30 PM
I was smiling and happy for you until your last post.

Sorry, things did not work out.

Nah, I really don't care too much...I enjoyed it, even with the strange ending. The beginning was worth it! ^^

I am sorry that this did not work out as you had expected, but it is good to hear you have a positive outlook on the situation. You live and learn, and grow with each new experience. I have been following your progress for a while now. I find myself looking forward to seeing whats new with Natalia every time I log on and I am so happy to see you blossoming! You are figuring out how to be you and I find your stories quite inspirational!

Quote from: Natalia on April 13, 2014, 06:57:39 PM

She just stopped everything, left me tied on the bed, checked her cellphone and said she needed to go because her uncle got ill and was at the hospital (really??? I don't think I buy it)... 

You where tied to a bed? LOL!

It's good to have the experiences but do take care about not becoming jaded because of them. Transition time is really tricky and complicated. It's been more than a decade after for me and I promise that it gets better.

How did you escape?