I have another appointment with my therapist today, and was thinking about how long I've been going through some sort of transition without even knowing it.  Yes, it's been a very long time. 

In 1984 I began looking for, then routinely took a lot of different over the counter medications to help grow breasts, and to make little changes to my appearance if I were lucky.  I couldn't shave off my beard so I figured I'd just grow small breasts and do lots of body care to at least feel like the woman I wanted to be.   There were already a whole lot of years spent dressing, shaving, and waxing when I could.  But as my need to change took hold, so did the desire to take whatever legally available drugs I could find.  I didn't care if I damaged my health, or if it could possibly kill me.  Wow, was I f'd up. 

I guess that's what they call denial, and until about ten years ago I somehow couldn't even remotely accept the fact that I was transgender.  Yes, I knew I had gender issues, but being transgender?  No way.  This sounds so incredibly stupid now, but I'm sure there's a couple girls out there who went through similar things.  Just wish I'd had the nerve to do what the woman I admired did, and followed the example of Renee Richards.

Well if you go back to when I came out as a teen it's been 20 years. But it's been 5 since I really put serious planning to get me to the point where I'm at now. I don't regret the times when I was a teen or when I was 20 or many of the other times I started but chickened out. I'm so successful now because I learned from my younger days and actually used those earlier times to help me now.

Well I guess that depends on what you mean by transition. I remember I wanted to be a girl when I was five, but I only found out what a transsexual was when I was thirteen. However, I foolishly thought I could over come my problem until I was about sixteen after which I came to the realization that I could not function as a guy. I consider that the starting point of when I started transition because I started growing out my hair then and started to 'mental' transition. That said, i started hormones by self medicating at nineteen just right before my twenty birth day and got a prescription from a doctor a few months later. I have been on hormones for over three years now and I am still transitioning. I still wear guy clothes some times too because they are comfy, but for the most part I am kind of a feminine girl who is boy crazy.

More than half my life, lived fulltime, on blockers when we moved to another state, quit high school, went to TAFE and did my years 11 & 12's there my 18th b'day started HRT.
I'm 34 (that hurts to say)

I guess that i've been "transitioning" since I was in my early 40's (I'm 51 now); i just didn't know it back then. I was doing a lot of what you were doing Kathy with over the counter medications and by the time I  was in my late 40's thinking that there could be no way that I was TS - I was wrong   

Officially I accepted that I am TS on July 20, 2013.

Quote from: Eva Marie on April 11, 2014, 12:39:02 AM
I guess that i've been "transitioning" since I was in my early 40's (I'm 51 now); i just didn't know it back then. I was doing a lot of what you were doing Kathy with over the counter medications and by the time I  was in my late 40's thinking that there could be no way that I was TS - I was wrong   

Officially I accepted that I am TS on July 20, 2013.

I started wearing articles of women's clothing in October 2012 to finally see why I felt the need to do so. 
I got all dolled up for the first time after Thanksgiving 2012 and shaved for the first time in years.
I got on a low dose of E January 22, 2013
I went out for the first time in Feb 2013
I went full time in Mar 2013
I accepted the fact that I am truly a transsexual in early April and that a full transition is warranted.
I got the full dose of HRT in July 2013.

I grew my hair out and pierced my ears in 1990.  Pierced nose in Jan 1991 when the only dude who did that was Slash.  Yeah, I knew.