I hear ya man. I haven't gone swimming for oh 10 years or so for that reason. I can understand that you don't like wearing the t-shirt or top. It sucks that it'll be that way till you can get surgery. Personally, I'll probably go ahead and get something so I can swim this year. I miss it too much. I gotta say I'm looking forward to wearing shorts this year - let my manly leg hair flow in the summer breeze haha. The best I can do is wait things out till I can get top surgery - that can't come soon enough. Hang in there bro, it's a tough ride but we're here for ya.