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I have been a member here for a while and have posted a few replies to threads that caught my interest. I have been CDing for many years, but still a bit in the closet about it. I started when a child as I always loved to wear my Mom's slips and bras, etc. Whenever I would play games with my friends, I always got to be the wife or girl whenever I could. I remember my first excitement being dressed for Halloween. My mother and aunt selected a dress for me from their wardrobe. It was a light blue party dress with a full skirt. It had small straps but was low cut. I was about 10 or 11. I remember them putting falsies in a bra, making up my face and putting on lipstick. I was thrilled!!! I went out trick or treating in the neighborhood and all the women made a big fuss over how cute I looked. Later, I did not want to take the dress off and sat on the floor with the dress flowing around me and a stocking leg poking out from underneath while we talked about all the costumes other kids wore. I remember being aroused the whole time I was sitting there.
I was very masculine in my choice of sports (all but tackle football.) I did not have a girlfriend all throughout high school. I did not date, not even to attend my prom. I liked girls, but was so horribly shy. I had a lot of male friends, but was always on the outside of the group.
When I was about 35, married and two kids later, I tried putting on my wife's stockings and pantyhose. I would wear it to work under my pants. At about the same time, I stopped having interest in having sex with my wife. We eventually split up over that issue as she started dating other men. I began to dress in earnest. I bought many clothes and wore them whenever I had the chance. Then I started to go out to bookstores and a gay bar dressed en femme. A little at first, then totally femme. I found a lot of men paid attention to me dressed as a woman. Two even got into a fight over me. I was enjoying the attention and further, got into providing sexual services to men when I dressed as a woman. I have been with many, many men only while dressed up. I still go out to a bookstore now and then, but started going to a beauty spa for hairstyling and body waxing. I am dressed enfemme and talk to the girls as if I am a transgendered person, which they accept. Now I find myself wanting to be more of a woman and want to tell my doctor that I would like to start hormones. I think about this all the time and it is taking over my life night and day. I hope there are others who are going through this or have these feelings to share this with. I hope to have some friends to talk with now and again as I live far from the cities. I am very open to answer any questions and will try to respond to all who write to me. Thank you for being here.
