How do you guys feel about any childhood photos of yourself as a "girl" that were taken?  When I say childhood photos, I mean about from around elementary school to middle school  Do you feel any emotional attachment to them, and if so, what type of emotions?  What do you see when (or if) you were to look at them now?  Have/would you ever show them to your S/O?

I was searching for my birth certificate and stumbled upon some childhood photos of mine.  I was really interested to look at them, especially photos taken in the 90's because I love and miss the 90's.  Aside from that, there was a picture of me in kindergarden and I had a crown on my head with the word "Queen" on it.  That definately should have said "King"! When I saw photos of myself I thought "awwww that was a cute little boy"....with long hair and a flower shirt, lol.  I guess I enjoyed looking at those photos and I definately won't hesitate to show my future S/O my childhood photos as I've done it before and enjoyed doing so since it was a part of my past as a boy, hehe. I think part of the reason I also enjoy it is because I can get a bit egotistical and conceited at times and enjoy talking about myself.  Plus, when I look back at them, I get slight joy because seeing the "girl" then makes me think about the man I will become.  It's quite motivating to me actually.  I still live with my mom so she has those photos, but if I ever move out, I don't think I'm going to carry them with me.....not beause of any emotional reason, but simply because they would end up severely damaged in my hands and I don't want them damaged!

I know I have rambled on long enough, lol, so what about you guys?

I have some of my childhood photos but they are all put up. In most of them I do look like a boy anyways. Though I have some from when I was a baby and I was wearing a dress. I didn't look like a girl there either, just a boy in a dress. Of course they also made me look like I had no arms cause they had to hold my arms behind me.

I guess I got lucky on most of my childhood photos and looking like a boy.  I have to say that I hate my senior photo for high school. You can tell I'm a girl and it pisses me off.

Some i don't like looking at it, but sometimes i see it as if it was my sister. And no i don't think i would like to show it to anyone.

My mother was big on photo's, she had a large photo album, but there is no one left to look at them.  I think my sister took the album when my mother died.

I can't deny they are there, but luckily I don't have to look at them.

I actually think they are weirdly affirming to me. I was always (when I had any control of what I wore) androgynous or boyish. I think it's kind of fun to see that. I also had a penchant for wearing costumes and so on. Now I see why I would have liked these to be some other character.

--Jay

I like mine because they're pretty telling. I was always so sad looking in dresses. But fine in boyish clothes. My first communion was just miserable face until after I was allowed to change into a "Hawaiian" button up and jeans, lol.

Edit - but I wouldn't share them with anyone, tbh.

Quote from: Malachite on April 11, 2014, 10:26:14 AM
Aside from that, there was a picture of me in kindergarden and I had a crown on my head with the word "Queen" on it.

For some reason this makes me smile. Lol. I'd love to see that photo (PM? I'll send you a picture of little me in return )

As for how I feel when I see pictures of myself as female...at this point I'm so disconnected from it that it doesn't matter. I don't see myself, it's like looking at a long lost sister.

It's a little weird looking at pictures of me when I was younger. I wish I could see a boy, but I really don't. I see a goofy kid with questionable fashion sense. Some of them are fine, but some of them I was overly girly in and I wonder if I was overcompensating or if I really was like that.
I would show them to someone if they were interested, but chances of anyone being interested are slim to none.

In most (well maybe half) childhood photos I look like a boy.  In ~another 30% I look androgenous.  The rest I don't look too girly.  I don't really care.  In general I like them.  I was a really happy kid, and had a super happy childhood.  My past is my past, and whatever.

My mom asked me if I wanted her to take down old photos of me in the house.  I said no. 

I have a couple photos up, but they are sort of me doing stuff (they are not childhood). The make me happy and I don't want them down (I have a couple swimming with a dolphin and another of me as commander of the space shuttle at Space Camp).

--Jay

I don't think my childhood photos are affirming of my gender at all. I was also quite an ugly child with no fashion sense. . .  But, I do like looking at them, the '90s were great times.

I like looking at my pictures from when I was young. I have no negative emotions about it whatsoever. I don't have a problem showing people my childhood photos either. I was a goofy kid and I think it's funny to see that I was always like that. The only embarrassment is the usual kind; bad hair cuts, ugly clothes, big ol' buck teeth, etc

I don't like to see them.  Some of them are ok, where I look male and you can't see any female features. 

I was young and its a past thing, I accept my childhood photos, I would only show them to someone I trusted a lot like a S.O, but that's about it

There are 2 of me around 12 years old that I look like a boy, when I was allowed to have my hair short. I may scan those in. I don't like the ones where I have long hair and mom MADE me wear dresses. Ugh.

I hate them, they only bring back bad and embarrassing memories of living a fake life. Besides, I looked so ugly as a girl after puberty that I consider it an insult to myself. Too bad my mom still has the things plastered over our walls.

All of my childhood photos, save a few, are still with my grandparents back in my native country - so I don't really have access to them anymore.

But every time I used to look at them - I realised that I could pretty much show them to anyone now and still "pass".  I was allowed to dress as a boy since I was about 5, so more than half of them are me with short hair in camouflage. 

The ones that are "girly" are...well - I honestly feel upset when I see them.  They make me angry thinking of what I could have looked like were I allowed to take hormones before the oestrogen took over my body.

This is something which stresses me because I have no childhood photos where I look even androgynous. I was born with quite long and thick hair and my parents got my ears pierced at a very young age and always put me in dresses.
I find it distressing that I will never be able to comfortably  show childhood photos to children or a significant other. I have no choice but to dismiss my childhood or awkwardly reclaim it and it blows.

I'm ok with my childhood pics, everyone thought I'm a boy who didn't know me. From high school to college years I wouldn't show pictures, I was also depressed and underweight so I don't have many pics from those years.

I haven't really transitioned yet, so from that point of view I am still living as a 'girl' and so, the pictures still look and feel a lot like it's me. I actually like looking at them, though, because I had a good childhood. I always hated myself, but I didn't hate my life, I had so many good things going on. As opposed to now, where my life is pretty empty and consists of nothing. So I enjoy looking back on happier times and I can still see myself. But at the same time, I don't feel a real connection to them. I know it's me, I just feel like it was a century ago or something, or from a parallel universe. Because my life now, and how I see myself now, is just so different to back then.