Quote from: FA on April 16, 2014, 10:16:08 AM
Everything should be resolved by now.

FA,

They say time heals all wounds.  Sadly, to a certain extent that idea is bogus.  You are hurting, all the "should" "would" "could" is not going to make the real pain go away.  Take the time you need to take care of you.

My wife passed over thirteen years ago.  All my issues about that also should be resolved by now.  Again saying should does not equal that they are.  Reality catches me when I least expect it and I need to have a good cry.

People here care about you.  Hang in there!


Erin

Quote from: FA on April 16, 2014, 10:16:08 AM
Kind of afraid to ask for help.

Then I'll offer help. You have been such a support for me and my issues from socialization. Let me repay the favour. I'm not sure where this thread is people are talking about, but if you want to talk about this stuff, I am always willing to listen.

Quote from: FA on April 16, 2014, 10:16:08 AM
Everything should be resolved by now.

That's what I tell myself about my issues too. As we know, things take more time to heal and that's ok.

I'm a bit lit. I haven't talked to you much, FA, but I really admire you. I also understand you are a person and have issues. I am sorry you are having a rough time and hope you can find support. You deserve it. You don't always have to be the strong one.

We're all friends here, if you, or anyone reading this for that matter, needs help, most anyone, myself included, is willing to try and help

Quote from: FA on April 16, 2014, 10:16:08 AM

Thanks. 
I'm doing a little better. Still feeling really awful about the thread. In the beginning, I was making some comments intended to be tongue in cheek. But I think something was lost in translation. Anyway, before I know it I'm trying to defend a point intended to just be sarcastic. Then people are thinking I'm trying to be intentionally cruel and I feel bad.

But sad panda said something about how I might be hiding by talking about 'women's issues' in general, so I don't have to talk about my problems. And maybe I am, not on purpose. But because what ails me is very hard to explain. And maybe it just all runs together in my mind and it's hard to really parse it out. Sorry I'm typing a lot here. Guess I just really need to talk.

Being the forum admin, I have tried to not to say much in threads and show kind of a neutral face. Kind of afraid to ask for help. Also, I've been transitioned for a good amount of time. Everything should be resolved by now.

Well, sometimes an issue may seem to be resolved at the time and then it pops back up again, unexpectedly. I've went through that sort of thing myself.

There's no shame in asking for help.

Quote from: FA on April 16, 2014, 10:16:08 AM

Thanks. 
I'm doing a little better. Still feeling really awful about the thread. In the beginning, I was making some comments intended to be tongue in cheek. But I think something was lost in translation. Anyway, before I know it I'm trying to defend a point intended to just be sarcastic. Then people are thinking I'm trying to be intentionally cruel and I feel bad and...

Thanks hon. I think you might be right. I always thought I wasn't really affected by living as a woman. Certainly, there are ways other women are affected that I wasn't.

All this stuff I've been saying - it might seem like I'm trying to be mean on purpose by saying all this stuff. But this stuff has been beaten to death in my journal long before I ever talked about it here. So if you believe anything I say, please believe me it was never intended to hurt anyone. I'm upset about problems I perceive as being result of female programming. All this stuff was in my private journal long before I ever mentioned it here. It was never intended to hurt anybody. I'm trying to work stuff out and I'm here all the time and it just spilled over. However, there are a lot of books and websites about these same issues and the harm done to women. So, I do know that it is a thing a lot of women are seriously affected by, especially young girls. I am upset about these issues themselves.

But sad panda said something about how I might be hiding by talking about 'women's issues' in general, so I don't have to talk about my problems. And maybe I am, not on purpose. But because what ails me is very hard to explain. And maybe it just all runs together in my mind and it's hard to really parse it out. Sorry I'm typing a lot here. Guess I just really need to talk.

Being the forum admin, I have tried to not to say much in threads and show kind of a neutral face. Kind of afraid to ask for help. Also, I've been transitioned for a good amount of time. Everything should be resolved by now.

Hope you're feeling better FA! I don't know what happened but, keep moving forward and never give up!

Nothing to be sorry for when it comes to typing/talking a lot. lol (This wasn't a lot for me btw lol) If you really need to talk then talk.

I can see why you'd think that way but even mods/admins have emotions and need to talk about their problems, and so on. Don't hurt yourself just because you want people to have a higher opinion of you or because you think a mod/admin should. That will only hurt you. You may be afraid to ask for help but remember, people can't do everything by themselves and need someone to talk too, help them and so on. So reach out for help and or someone to talk to if you need/want too!

Hope you feel 100% better soon FA!