How can I say this without tearing up. This website, Susan's, literally saved my life. I'd been trying for nearly 5 years to find a Doctor that would help me get started on hrt, and because I live in a rural area of Florida I wasn't having much luck. I'd started losing hair again and was crying myself to sleep each night having those dark feelings of my two prior suicide attempts resurfacing. I felt trapped in the "in between" male and female state I'd lived in all my life, and didn't want to live anymore especially if I would lose all my hair on the top left side of my head.

Then as if by a miracle while doing research on hair loss crying not knowing what else to do thinking, "all I have to do is take my whole bottles of pain med's, I'd fall asleep and never wake up and this torment would finally be over," I saw at the bottom of my search page a result that discussed hair loss issues here on Susan's so I gave it a click. As I wiped the tears from my eyes I couldn't believe what I was seeing. A whole new family of people like myself, who understood what I was going through. As read on I regained my courage and dam the torpedoes I ordered my hrt meds. While anxiously awaiting my meds to arrive Susan's was my lifeline. My meds arrived the day after Christmas, and on December 27th 2013 I took my 1st dose of hrt meds. Susan's helped me to search harder for an Endo to monitor my hrt. My former PC Dr. retired and the Dr. that took over his practice was sympathetic toward what I've been going through. Well, long story short a month and a half later I found the best Endo in the world (to me anyway) who has other transgender patients and years of transgender experience. He looked at the dosages I was taking DIY, told me I did a good job but it was his turn now to take care of me. He continued my dosages I was on especially the Dutasteride, which had stopped my hair loss in it's tracks 3 days after starting on it. So  I'm now being monitored and my insurance is paying for my hrt meds.

I have Susan's though to thank for bringing me literally back from the brink, getting started on my full transition, and finding the Doctors I needed to find to do so. So now 3 months, 2 weeks, and 5 days into my hrt I've never felt better,I have a positive attitude, and I've learned alot about myself. I've also because of Susan's met the two best people in the world I wouldn't have met otherwise, I've met some of the greatest online friends a girl can have, and I'll still be here for a long while even after my SRS in hopes of helping out girls in need like I myself was in need, and Susan's helped me.

There are no words I can say that are adequate to thank those of you who make this website possible. I'll only say I'm proud to be part of the family, and hope to do my part to help others as much as I have been helped by this website. Susan's is my online home. A place where I can laugh, cry, spill my guts, vent, and share happiness with this wonderful new family I now have.

Ally

Four words:

Susan's is my home.

I'm new, but so far it has been a helpful source of information and reading posts here has taught me that I'm not alone or crazy.

I was never ashamed with my realisation that I'm transgender, but I was (and still am) a little freaked out since it's a relatively new thing.  It helps when you have awesome friends, and it also helps to be around others who are going through (or have gone through) the same thing.  I've learnt a lot about the lives of TG folks, which satisfies a long-term curiosity.  There's a lot of useful information and advice.  Like with many other communities, there are people who offer different perspectives on various issues which helps me develop informed opinions.  Everyone is nice and non-judgemental (or at least most posters are).  I've now got some grounding with my issues and I'm on my way to working out who I am thanks to this place.

I've only been here a short while, but on here is basically the only place I can be myself right now since I'm not fully out of the closet. It's the most wonderful and liberating feeling, and it's so nice to be surrounded by wonderful people who all know exactly what you're going through.

Thank you for having me and making me feel welcome.

Susan's means the world to me! I've had the opportunity to meet some great people and even establish some good friendships. I was at a point where I was feeling really suicidal and Susan's was there to rescue me from that dark abyss.

Thank you to everyone whom is in this community as if it wasn't for you, this place would not be as great as it is!