"androgynous" or however you spell it...I don't really want facial hair or to change my name to a boy name...those things don't do anything for me...so I feel that would be the category I'd fall under...sorry I'm just so wanting to really figure this out because this is so complicated ugh    I saw a doctor this past Monday but I don't feel better yet, I have a long way to go before I'm satisfied and content

Well, it is a process.  I can't speak for anyone else but for me I didn't just wake up one morning with this revelation.  It took some work.  But it sounds like you're on the right path.

There is totally nothing wrong with being androgynous. If that's what makes you happy? I mean some people find themselves a bit of both genders, others one or the other, and some they just like.. gender neutral? Like they're not really one or the other? I think that's how that one works, I'm not sure on that end of the spectrum.

It does take time to figure out. I mean it took me forever to really figure myself out. But you'll get there, and whatever you feel you are go for it. Like just take it, own it, be it, and you'll find some peace of mind. Or that's the hope for any of us anyways =P