Quote from: Shantel on April 21, 2014, 07:04:00 PMI dunno, you're pretty young yet, do you think you're going to make it?

I dunno. I should probably get a cane to wave at the younguns' in anger

Quote from: christopher on April 21, 2014, 08:58:00 PMI can not believe how bad my back is today. I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to go to work tomorrow.

Mine hurts really bad too. I went to a chiropractor for it a while back, but it didn't help.

Found another tag on my skin again. I really need to see my dermatologist again. -_-

Quote from: Lauren5 on April 21, 2014, 11:57:41 PM
I dunno. I should probably get a cane to wave at the younguns' in anger

Time to start practicing your "GET OFF MY LAWN" voice? Hope your back gets better soon


Yesterday I made up somebody's last pay packet
Today I had to hand it to them

Another night of severe insomia.  I got some sleep, but really not enough. I hate it.  Usually I take 4 advil pms, 15 mg of melatoinin and sometimes a spoonful of kava to sleep every night.  I haven't been using the kava, so now I'm having more trouble.  While I realize this is very unhealthy, I get so much anxiety at night and know I need something to just put me down.  However, my liver's been through a lot and still continues to take a punch considering I take hormones and an anti depressant as well.  Hopefully it won't be the death of me anytime soon, lol. 

Reduced to tears today (for the second time) when the therapist I've been chasing for the last two weeks finally got back to me, and told me the wait to see him is 3 months long. 3 days is a long time for me at the moment, and the dysphoria is getting worse by the day, and now I have to wait three months! 

Quote from: Kara Jayde on April 22, 2014, 04:15:04 AM
Reduced to tears today (for the second time) when the therapist I've been chasing for the last two weeks finally got back to me, and told me the wait to see him is 3 months long. 3 days is a long time for me at the moment, and the dysphoria is getting worse by the day, and now I have to wait three months! 

I remember my wait, goddess I was so ready and I just needed to see my therapist, then found out it would be 6 months. So, I cried, less easy then than now . Told myself to get ready, got laser, got waxing, started to dress in a more feminine style, did my toe nails, got my ears pierced, saw a hairdresser and told them I was TG and what could they do for a grey haired old man.

I started to live.

Yes it was very hard but..............when I had my first appointment I was ready, even more ready than I thought. I had also got over all the crap comments, I was ready.

Transitioning? It was so easy because I had already done it.

Quote from: Kara Jayde on April 22, 2014, 04:15:04 AM
Reduced to tears today (for the second time) when the therapist I've been chasing for the last two weeks finally got back to me, and told me the wait to see him is 3 months long. 3 days is a long time for me at the moment, and the dysphoria is getting worse by the day, and now I have to wait three months! 

BIG HUG for Kara Jayde
I know this might not be much support, try to foucus on building a war chest for transition. (hair removal, psych appointments [medicare and a mental health plan will only go so far], make up, wardrobe you can never have enough clothes). I found it helped me take my mind off the wait and it helps you be prepared for when the great day finally occours.
Try to keep your spirits up I know it's hard it will get better eventually. Gypsy

Quote from: Cindy on April 22, 2014, 04:30:16 AM
I remember my wait, goddess I was so ready and I just needed to see my therapist, then found out it would be 6 months. So, I cried, less easy then than now . Told myself to get ready, got laser, got waxing, started to dress in a more feminine style, did my toe nails, got my ears pierced, saw a hairdresser and told them I was TG and what could they do for a grey haired old man.

I started to live.

Yes it was very hard but..............when I had my first appointment I was ready, even more ready than I thought. I had also got over all the crap comments, I was ready.

Transitioning? It was so easy because I had already done it.

Quote from: immortal gypsy on April 22, 2014, 04:50:12 AM
BIG HUG for Kara Jayde
I know this might not be much support, try to foucus on building a war chest for transition. (hair removal, psych appointments [medicare and a mental health plan will only go so far], make up, wardrobe you can never have enough clothes). I found it helped me take my mind off the wait and it helps you be prepared for when the great day finally occours.
Try to keep your spirits up I know it's hard it will get better eventually. Gypsy

Thank you both for the kind words! This is a little hurdle, but it hit me emotionally pretty hard. I've spoken to a few girls locally and they suggested I go the informal consent route - basically get my GP to prescribe the HRT while I wait. I'm not sure what that process is like but I'm trying to look into it, since I'd very much like to begin at least the anti-androgens straight away! I might bring it up with my GP when I go to get my blood work results

Quote from: Daydreamer on April 22, 2014, 12:42:18 AM
Found another tag on my skin again. I really need to see my dermatologist again. -_-

Don't feel like you're alone here, I am lifetime job security for my dermatologists. I get a smooth hull and every six months I have to get the barnacles removed again. 

I think I caught a stomach bug from my mother.

Its very likely I will stop, for the sake of my family, and revert to.. what I was before October.  mean, ugly, sullen, and just, die, inside.




I just don't know what else to do.     

Quote from: Paula Christine on April 22, 2014, 02:11:53 PM
Its very likely I will stop, for the sake of my family, and revert to.. what I was before October.  mean, ugly, sullen, and just, die, inside.




I just don't know what else to do.     

You know. I got onto this thread because I'm having a crappy day, but I can't complain about my petty problems in the face of that.

Paula, we're all here to support each other. Vent, scream, cry, ask for advice. My ear is here for you.

Dee

Having to pay my car insurance, phone bill and our family accountant for doing the taxes.  Luckily, I was given over 200 dollars as a gift from my coworkers on my last day of work as a temp (a gift they gave me to help me out while they try to get me back permanetly because they are all such sweet people) so it wasn't as bad as it could have been as it covered about 2/3rds of it.  Just sucks that I lost it all within a manner of days and and then some.  However, that gift did make this part of my monthly bills easier, so I can't complain even though I am sad to part with the money.

Quote from: learningtolive on April 22, 2014, 05:06:37 PM
Having to pay my car insurance, phone bill and our family accountant for doing the taxes.  Luckily, I was given over 200 dollars as a gift from my coworkers on my last day of work as a temp (a gift they gave me to help me out while they try to get me back permanetly because they are all such sweet people) so it wasn't as bad as it could have been as it covered about 2/3rds of it.  Just sucks that I lost it all within a manner of days and and then some.  However, that gift did make this part of my monthly bills easier, so I can't complain even though I am sad to part with the money.

aww well I'm glad your coworkers are nice anyway. And I hope it all works out there. It's awesome to work with people who like you.

I massively undercooked my spaghetti. I'll keep eating it anyway, but gross.

Nothing major, fortunately, but today some inconsiderate woman at the grocery store at the register decided to hold up the whole line just after I had unloaded a full cart on the belt.   Why?  After she got done buying her groceries, she decided to try to make some returns without a receipt.  So she argues and whines and complains and makes a big ugly long-winded deal of about two dollars worth of stuff.  Everyone in line is calling her out on her BS, I tell her I'd gladly give her five bucks just to drop it and f*&^ off, but noooo.  She stood her ground and demanded the manager, which took forever.  Then she had it out with the manager, who, after a few minutes of taking abuse asked her to leave.  She didn't.  Instead she had a major freakout and had to be escorted out.  We all applauded, but I can't believe she got to waste 20 minutes of my time over two lousy dollars when I was willing to give her five.

Some people make no sense.

OMG, people like that drive me bugs    Luckily the grocery in town has a customer service desk that problem people are immediately directed to so they don't stuff up the checkout stand 

Quote from: V M on April 22, 2014, 08:35:29 PM
OMG, people like that drive me bugs    Luckily the grocery in town has a customer service desk that problem people are immediately directed to so they don't stuff up the checkout stand

That store did too.  This nutbag wouldn't leave the checkstand until she got her $2 from the store.  She didn't and we had to wait for her to get the boot.

I'm feeling what I think is homesickness. Strange because I've never really had a home. I want to return to Europe. Like a fresh start, leave all this bullcrap that I built up here. There's way too many issues with that though, such a move would have to wait at least until the new year, if not next summer, if ever. One of the many things depressing me tonight.

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