My teenage pictures are the most painful. I had long ago realised I was never going to have a proper penis and would be stuck as a girl forever, so in spite of presenting as a heterosexual tomboy, I was desperate to be seen as good looking even as my Poly-cystic ovary syndrome made me pack on the pounds and I experimented with more feminine goth looks.

In spite of it, I will never hide the childhood, teen and infancy photos. Any gay, pansexual or bisexual man that I marry will have already known about my past long before the relationship starts. Also, if I want my future kids to learn honesty, then they will know their daddy's whole story. Edited to age-appropriate of course 

Lots of interesting answers!

Looking back, I do wish I was lucky enough to be able to have a less feminate appearance and clothes, but despite all of that, I still see a boy.  Now when it comes to middle/high school photos, with the exception of NJROTC photos, I hated the rest because I was so miserable.  In my later photos, I didn't even smile because I hated life so much, and I had a slightly more masculine appearance then too.

It's sort of a curse and a blessing, but I don't have many childhood pictures. I was always too self-conscious of my body and avoided the camera all my life. There's only a handful of pictures of me growing up, but a ton of baby pictures. The ones that do float around though, I can't look at. Same with old home videos, I can't watch it. It's just too hard for me, although even back then, I presented in a masculine manner.

I remember going through all of them that I could find, putting them in chronological order, and then throwing them out without a thought.  I don't really regret it.  There are still some floating around, but I don't look at them or think about them.  I doubt they'll ever be around when I'm older, my family don't really do photos except of our animals.

Quote from: lxndr on April 23, 2014, 04:08:54 PM...my family don't really do photos except of our animals.

Well that's unfortunate. 

I was lucky in that my middle school/high school years were in the 1980's.  The androgynous look was in then, so it was unisex/male rugby shirts and button down oxford shirts for the women.  I was never feminine, but with the style of dress being more unisex than female, I didn't stand out in high school either.

Church was different, however.  Until high school, I was expected to wear a dress or shirt.  Thank God my mother let me wear pants to church by high school, but for the annual church photos, I had to wear a dress.

A couple of weeks ago I was over at my mom's house.  She still goes to that same church and she said that a guy who knew back then thought he saw me at a restaurant (he would have seen me 4 years ago at my father's funeral where I was dressed in my usual male clothing).  She pulled out the annual church photo books for us to go through because I wasn't certain of the name of the person and I was wondering who she was referring to.  I couldn't help but look at the photos of our family in these church photo books.  I didn't want my girlfriend to see them though!  My mother was like, "why don't you want her to see them?"  We have been together for 5 years, but I don't want an image of me in a dress burned into her brain!!

Quote from: Kreuzfidel on April 23, 2014, 08:13:58 PM
Well that's unfortunate. 

Ha, it doesn't really bother me, its just something that isn't done. I can't understand families where there's photos everywhere.

Uhu yes, I have photos of myself in pink stuff and pigtails, very girly. But also pics where I just outright look like a boy (I had a few 'girl phases' throughout my life). Even one in a dress which I'd rather not dig up. I thought I might 'want' to be a boy because I had simply never tried being a girl and didn't know what it was like, and because my masculine never-dress-wearing female friends also went in dress I just was like *shrug* 'Eh, okay, why not. You only live once, right' it was nice to be complemented on my looks the first time (no one has ever though I was 'pretty' and I always dressed very andro/masculine in way too big clothes), and it was a nice "try before you die" kind of thing, lol, but wouldn't want to repeat it.

My nan did a thing a while back where she filled an album of me when i was a kid. Her way, i believe of hanging onto her little grandaughter and trying to remind me thats what i am/was??  Anywho - i flicked through it very briefly and tossed it to one side never to be looked at ever again. Thinking about it now (since i've moved house twice since) i wouldnt be able to tell you where it is if you asked :-/

But funnily enough i did happen by chance of a photo of me at around 13/14 while my mum was looking at some photos of my great anties old house. It was quite amusing to see. I never dressed girly when i was a kid when i had the choice. I looked very much like  a girl - but more of a country get muddy kinda girl! lol

I do also have a pic of me on FB that an old family member tagged me in a while ago. I didnt mind because i'm about 2 in the pic and you cant really tell what gender I am

I actually have a lot of childhood photos like very young and all of them I am in dresses and my parents had my ears pierced when I was very young. When I look at highschool photos I really hate them, only some more recent photos I like (I am pre-everything)

In most pics other than my insanely uncomfortable looking prom photo, I actually look more like a boy. I went to an all girls school but in school photos I was always in the back as I was moderately tall, and I always wore a shirt, tie and blazer even though we were allowed blouses and polos, and the blazer wasn't mandatory. It was my suit...with a kilt! Lol.

When I came out to my family my father confessed that whenever colleagues see photos of the family they always think I'm his son. And whenever I've been at his work place they thought I was my brother (he's a fair bit younger than me so they saw me as a younger boy and knowing what year of school my brother was in, they just figured I must be him and not the much older girl lol). His issue now is that he can't understand why that's not enough and why I couldn't just be a butch lesbian but that's another story :-P.

My avatar is actually a pic of me before I even came to know and accept that I was trans. I just love it because at that convention that guy (Nathan Fillion) thought I was a guy along with the rest of the attendees and that smile is so genuine, and the experience so great for me that it's something I look back on to realise how important it was for me to transition. The comfort and content I felt that weekend was like a short hit of the path I'm permanently on now.

I don't like the pictures of me in a dress. My dad had this thing of lining us up at the front door every year and taking a picture. There are hundreds of these.

--Jay

Quote from: aleon515 on April 26, 2014, 11:57:26 AM
I don't like the pictures of me in a dress. My dad had this thing of lining us up at the front door every year and taking a picture. There are hundreds of these.

--Jay

Wow Jay, I knew you were older but you certainly don't look like you're in your hundreds! 

Quote from: lxndr on April 26, 2014, 12:23:21 PM
Wow Jay, I knew you were older but you certainly don't look like you're in your hundreds! 

Haha, funny funny. Had a good laugh over a dangling something or other. (Haha yet another double entendre for you.)

--Jay