I have been thinking of resigning. Both as a Mod and a member.

My transition is over. My surgery is booked. I am a healthy happy woman.

I am .............happy.

Jeez that has taken a life time to say. And Oh my Goddess the journey. How did I survive?

I did.

I have been told by some ex staff what a horrible person I am.

I will agree, I am very flawed.

I offer no excuses. I offer no explanations.
To say may past was bad is an understatement, but that is no excuse for my present.

I will stay, if you want me too, I will leave if you want me to.

I am Cindy, I walk my path.

I shall walk it alone or hand in hand

Your choice

With Sadness

Cindy

Stay.  Please.  Isn't it odd that I PM'd you before you posted this with an "attagirl".

That did not happen by accident and I knew nothing of your worries.

STAY.  PLEASE 

Cindy,

I do not know what is going on behind the scenes.  I am sorry for everyone that is hurting, including Cindy.  I, for one, look forward to reading your posts and enjoy the perspective you bring to things.

Hugs, sister.

Please stay!


Erin

I'd like you to stay,it won't be the same without you.At the same time you must do what you think is best and right for you,if you go you shall be missed greatly

Stay please
You have helped others when they have asked (myself included). Your knowledge of the Adelaide system is needed, this forum should be a place where we go to help and how can that happen if we can not ask for local knowledge. Life can be hard on us at times but that is what helps us to grow and your post have always been an insparation to me. Yes people can be cruel and horrible but do not let them make you dissapper. Step down as a mod if you so wish take a break if you think it will do you good. But please do not leave, even in the short time I have been here I for one will be sad to see you go.

Gypsy

I am still crying and I don't usually cry.

I do not want you to leave.

You never really know how many lives you touch.  I had someone tell me 10 years after it happened that they did not suicide because they knew that I actually cared about them just as a person, no strings attached.  I had no idea.

The ripples of our lives spread and spread and go on and on.

Don't let hurt win.  We all know how that feels and where that leads.  Be there for the rest of us please.

Sh-- I am still in tears.  Please, please stay, as a member if you wish, but I am sure that there are more than just me that need you here.

Oh the battles we fight.  No more casualties please. 

Stay...!!

Cindy,

I don't really know much about you besides this site nor do I know what the recent battles have been about.  What I will say is that I have no issue with you and don't think you've been anything but fair as a mod.  IF you are to leave, please leave on your own terms.  Don't let someone else chase you off.   And so what if you are flawed or makes mistakes?  Who isn't?  And I can bet whoever criticizes you is the same.  I don't know enough about Cindy the person, but I do know a bit about Cindy the mod.  I don't think you should leave, but that's just my opinion.  Don't run away because of bullies.

Again, I don't want to get involved in other people's fights nor do I know anything about them, but I hope people can reslve these things.  Enough with the fighting.  I suspect someone that I love here who I consider a friend is part of this given their recent return.  Please build the bridges you've always wanted to build.  Life is too short to hold grudges and too long to hold regrets.

Cindy if you don't want to be a mod no more that's ok it's not an easy job I understand. But please don't leave over this drama your not a horrible person. Your transition is over so! I don't see any rule that says you must leave because your transition is over. Because if that's the case I should be getting the boot too. Don't let this crap get to you ok. If your going to leave do it because you feel it's time. Not over some name calling please.

What did you tell ME last year when I wanted to leave, hell no! You went out of your way to calm me down and relax. If it wasn't for you I would be a messed up non transitioned mess.

                                                  PLEASE STAY!

If my vote counts, stay.

Quote from: Jessica Merriman on April 24, 2014, 08:10:48 AM
                                                  PLEASE STAY!

Yes... Please stay... You have been such an inspiration to me and others here. If you don't want to be a mod, I could understand that for sure. You have so much to offer and it would break my heart to see you leave.

Your comment on one of the threads I started when I was just starting my transition really helped me to believe that one day living happily as a woman would be possible.

I think you've touched a lot of other members similarly and it would be a huge loss to the site if you went.

I'm going to selfishly vote with the majority, please stay!

Those of us just starting out need our sisters and brothers who've gone before to guide us past the traps and pitfalls. Pay it forward, Cindy, I promise that, when the time comes, I will too, regardless.

I hope you will stay, Cindy! You have helped so many of us here, including me. Susan's wouldn't be the same without you!

Hugs!

Shana

Cindy-

You are an invaluable person here at Susan's and you help everyone. Helping others also helps yourself. I know that's a heavy burden to bear at times but you have proven that you are one tough woman and can do it. I would love to see you stay and keep helping others, but I also understand if you feel the need to step away from moderating or this site.

Please don't let some meaningless discord run you off; this too shall pass.

Did I mention I want you to....

                                                    STAY PLEASE!!

I am quite literally sitting here in tears... You were the first person who posted on my first thread here. I so hope you decide to stay... I will miss you so much if you decide to leave...

I am going to buck the trend here....

I have been in and out of Susans over the years. I have helped people here and I have been helped by people here including Cindy. Nonetheless this place can make my issues worse as well as better so I come and go. I find it easier to just read than get drawn into arguments, so I largely lurk. I need the breaks. Places like this can grind you down. Some posters can be relentlessly negative.

The other thing I want to say is that if transition teaches anything, it teaches you to listen to your inner voice and not to trample it or suppress it.

If Cindy feels the need to go, or stop modding then we should not be talking her out of it. We should respect her decision and say "Thanks for everything, but please come back when you need to". To do otherwise seems to me to be like talking someone out of transitioning because I would be uncomfortable if they went ahead. I cannot apply one rule to myself and another to others.

So... to sum up. I have logged back in to say "Thanks Cindy. You helped me when I needed it. If you need time off to enjoy your life and give yourself space then I wish you all the very, very best. Thank you for all you did. Listen to your inner voice and do what is right for yourself."

Cindy, please stay.

You were kind and supportive to me at a time I thought I was nuts and had no hope. I've seen you do that for others here. While we have different destinations, I understand what you mean about it being over.

And besides there's only one way out of the Aussie Mafia..