id been thinking of telling my counsellor that i feel im a male in a female body so i sat up all night last night worrying and thinking how i was going to tell her, how she may react etc. i wrote down a little letter saying i wanted to talk 2 her about something personal and i would like her to keep it between me her and my doctor etc. she came today at 10:30 and not long left. it was so hard to give the letter to her. she read it and we went for a walk. by this time i was shaking and so nervous. i just didnt think the words were going to come out of my mouth. she spoke to me about anything but the issue, normal every day thigns you talk about. she then asked me if i felt ok to tell her a bit about what was bothering me. so i just came out with it. was so hard. i was mixing my words up and shaking. after i had told her i felt kind of worried, waiting for a response. she was fine with it and said she wouldnt tell anyone but my doctor and he wouldnt tell anyone (unless i want them to). we just had a chat about it and a walk around. i felt less nervous and glad i had told her. i feel like a massive weight has been lifted from me. i dont know how i did it, i just did! she asked me if over the next few months i would like her and my doctor to help me with information etc and she said that she would be able to help me with a gender therapist and as my parents dont know she would be able to go with me and everything. so i feel really good right now about it. i am actually glad i told her and it went better than i had imagined! she was much more understanding etc than i thought she may be (although shes so nice. i have never felt so comfy with a counsellor before thats why i wanted to tell her. it felt the right time) and she isnt treating me any different to how she used to which was something i was worried about.
im still feeling a little shaky now but i dont feel too bad you know?
