I'm back, after 2+ years since my last post on this forum.
I took a bit of a look around, and see a lot of new faces, and some familiar ones too.
I'm not exactly sure where to start, since this is a little bit of a reintroduction. But my life has changed in soooo many ways since the last time I frequented here. I'm living in a completely different region of the United States now for almost a year and a half, and have been doing reasonably well here so far. I'm also essentially engaged to an amazing person and will be getting married in a few years.
I have thought for the last year or two that I had it together on gender, and found resolve in living as male too. I've been doing well overall, despite many challenges I've been faced in living and working. Depression and anxiety can be issues, but I'm back in counseling again to handle them out. The thing that brings me back here is I have found myself having increasing periods where I am drawn towards gender-deviant activities again, and realized it hasn't fully gone away yet. I didn't really want to deal with it for a long time; thought I had closed the whole chapter on my life there with that and wanted NOTHING to do with it. But now I'm willing to explore, a bit more calmly with myself now than I was prior 2-6 years ago. I do not want to explore in an act of emotional desperation, or try to transition immediately. I just want to take my time now. I don't know what answers may come, but I think that I can give myself that room to explore for them, gently and with more love for myself as a human being. My SO is supportive of me and loves me regardless of what I end up doing, which I am eternally grateful for. In fact, she wants to help me out in exploration too.
So, I guess that's about all for now.
More to come!
