Making peace with a couple of things about myself that have been bothering me recently.
1) My age. I am about to turn 45, and I don't feel like I have lived that long. I have existed that long, but I wasn't really living until recently. I wasted a lot of years of my so-called "prime" being numb to the world and just going throught the motions. I recently had some serious self-loathing issues over that. I am just going to concentrate on what lies ahead now. The past is simply that. I am free of this prison of my own making and I will suffer it no more. Forward I go.
2) I had feelings for some friends of mine over the years. If I had been born physically female, I probably would have slept with them. Well, one of them is still alive... Maybe someday?