right now im realy happy with who i am and i think my parents are starting to get used to me having feminine things like my makeup and clothes and jewelry and stuff which i have around the house.

They dont get mad at me or anything if they find my feminie things.

Iv realised that my fem side is a big part of my life and i could never shut it out or give it up.

I went cmas shopping today with my mum and she was in a ladys store buying some gifts n stuff for my cousin for xmas and i saw some realy nice clothes in my size so on friday i think im going to go back to the store and buy them as its christmas they will think im buying the clothing as a gift. I saw some lovely black bottoms which most of the girls are wearing where i live and they are slip on type ,they sell them in marks and spencer and a few other high street shops do them too.

It seems most hair dresser gals where i live wear them and they are realy cool.

I also saw these other comfy looking bottoms and some nice tops too.

Its nice now becuase i can wash my own clothes at home and leave them out to dry and my mum is ok with that.

iv also starting talking to my counciler more about my femself and hopefully things will keep getting better.

I remember back to when i first started crossdresing i thought it was bad/wrong and i went through stages of trying to shut it out of my life and a few times i came to the point that i threw clothing away becuase i though it was bad to have these feelings and i was also worried of being caught by my parents but now i dont have those problems anymore.

the times i did shut my fem self out where hard becuase theres always something to remind you how nice your fem side ,just seeing clothes while your out can make it hard i can remeber i used to want to go in to a shop and buy some of the nice things but i tried my hardest to shut those thoughts/feelings out.

all i know is that im never going to shut my femself/fem side out again and i want to make the most of my fem self becuase life is too short.

Hey there,

It's great to hear that your life is getting a little easier.  Acceptance is often long in coming but it's definitely worth the wait.  As you've discovered we can't force ourselves on anyone, for if we do it will often lead to outright rejection.  Given enough time most people come round.

One thing is for sure it sure is nice not having to hide, isn't it.  Just remember to take it easy, easing your parents along, and remember to keep those lines of communication open.  You're doing great, and it looks as though your Christmas will be too.

Steph

I will.hope i have a good xmas im looking forward to xmas anyways 

I am so happy for you Tammy.  It sounds like you are on the right track.  You've accomplished alot since your first postings.  It must feel so good for you to be able to leave things out and not have to hide anymore.  I think Stephanie is right.  Just take it slow and don't try to hurry things too much or you may meet resistance.  As they say, "slow and steady wins the race".  I know you will accomplish your goals.  Your story put a smile on my face today.

Lisabeth

sadly i cant wear my fem stuff for xmas as im going to my uncles and my parents are ok that i have fem things but they dont ever want to see me wearing them.

iv got a heck of alot to sort out so i can be my fem self 24/7 i got to get a income then i got to get a place to live of my own then after that iv got to sort out hrt & sex change.

i keep thinking to myself how long it will takt to sort it all out but how ever long it takes it will be worth the wait just so i can be myself and be happy.

sometime inbetween the getting a incoming ,moving out and getting hrt & op iv got to tell my parents that i dont want to be a male any more.

the past two days iv spent shopping for clothes.i got a lovley top and some lingerie and a few other things.

after xmas is over im going to get some womans trousers as i now know what size to get.

since my mum started working temp for xmas iv had alot of time to be my fem self at home and iv been realy happy.

i also brought my mum some clothes for xmas as she was short on tops and trousers.

its also realy nice to be able to go in to a womans clothes shop without worrying.

i dont even care if people think im buying the stuff for myself.

I hope you all have a nice christmas and a happy one.

tammy x

QuoteAlso, realize that you are starting young and have a lot more time than many others have had.  Use it to your advantage.

How could i use that to my advantage? im not v good at thinking this early in the morning lol.

merry xmas

tammy

i never knew that. I kept thinking that i might be getting to old for hrt "i know that sound silly"

i read somewhere online that after you reach a certain age it could take a very long time for the hrt to take efect or something along those lines.

i still have alot of thinking to do but i know that i still want to have hrt & a sex change.

just hope my parents & family will still talk to me or want to see me after.

Quote from: tammygirluk on December 25, 2005, 12:20:37 PM
i never knew that. I kept thinking that i might be getting to old for hrt "i know that sound silly"
i read somewhere online that after you reach a certain age it could take a very long time for the hrt to take efect or something along those lines.
i still have alot of thinking to do but i know that i still want to have hrt & a sex change.
just hope my parents & family will still talk to me or want to see me after.

Hello Tammy.

When it comes to HRT the best source of information is competent medical doctors, who specialize in that field (endocrinologists) or from doctors who have experience with these therapies.  Do not rely on hear say.   While there is a lot of information out there you must be very careful with what you do with this information, as everyone reacts differently to HRT.  I was 53 when I started HRT and I started seeing changes within two months, so there you go, everyone is different.  Check out the Wiki, there is a pretty good article there.

See your doctor about such things.  If he/she is uncomfortable or is unable to advise you then ask for a reference to one who is.  Be smart, be safe.

Steph